You know there's time when you feel that the world is against you?
When the sensitivity in you engulfed the real you?
When your pride made you even more obstinance?


Smile? is that sincere ?
laugh? That facade won't last.


Why not stop?
Why not talk?
why not think?


right or wrong?
true or false?
love or hate?
friends or foe?


you see nothing will end without a start?
Hatred won't cease without love.


why not start now?
what's done, so be it.
it's doesn't matter who's at fault.
Past has gone, new has come.


Ears, listen not.
Eyes, proves not.
What listen and proves is heart.
Ask. Think. Feel. Sense.
The answer lies there.


i'm here. They're here. Everyone's here.
Just listen. seek and feel.
remorse or guilt don't be.
friendship or love need no apology.


APOLOGY. ( melivia. )

DANG! how much have i missed here? well, i'm finally,thank god, updating this page of mine. it's been ages! well, i'm finally secondary five and soon, i'll be going to america,hopefully. gotta depend on my results. =D tell me what have i missed here? haaa! that's the recent picture taken with tika. been ages since we went out!





oh.. i'm serious. it's been far too long since i smiled like that! hahax!! well, i love beta to the core. she's my sweetest drug! her existence itself is already a blessing. haha!





well, that's an outing with heryani a few weeks back.






taken on dick's bday party. can't remember much anyways. been weeks back.


weell, i'm excited to show this! i'm serious. it's a photo i'm most proud of. tooks me much effort to get this photo you know.


well......


its.........


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it's the house where Obama's stayed in Indonesia. you knoww.. when his mum married an indonesian. hahaha! i've searched for this house for age! Obama's my role model you know! so i'm desperate enough to search for his 'EX' house. =D


that's roughly a summary! hahax!! see, school's hectic these days. " welcome to sec 5!" damb! all teachers are saying that. so a reply to it was. " thank you for the sarcastic remarks! " though it's true. anyways. tomorrow's V day! V V V V V ! i've spread my 'love' + love to people" today. hahax! it's an homemade chocolate. dang! so ridiculous for me to do it. hahax!! i've sacrifise my microwaves and fridge ya know.

you know meeting some "people" who always get on someone's nerves is inevitable. like hypocrites, one who only know how to wallow in self pity and some bunch out there even who have this so called vey "in-dated" trend which is the "die die won't admit" personality. geeeeez!! imagine how bloodcurdling it is to meet/talk/listen to them for like till the day you die?!


i really can't stand those who only know how to drown themselves in self pity! geeez! get a life mans. the world won't come to a standstill and wait for ya! don't try to seek attention by shedding crocodile tears. jeeez! it's so very infuriating. don't be that low to resort to such low actions!


and there's this rediculous trend where acting so vey humble is known as cool?! which dictionary are you bunchy reading yo?!


"ahhh! i'm sure won't make it! " and " sure fail! " in conclusion is denying compliments that is given!


i abhor such goofballs outthere!! compliments are meant to be given a " thank you! " as reply. i'm sure we are taught such things! it's known as basic manners!

this week is totally my "N-O" week. i don't know which black cat or which ever idiot had passed me this fatal disease known as " BADLUCK ! " i was lectured ! said to be " an arrogant self-claiming genius " and today followed by lectures on this topic " not putting effort! " geeeez!


I'm NOT PUTTING ANY EFFORT?! well, yeah! honestly speaking, i've not really put in effort but it can't be help you know. i don't know how to put in effort. see, usually i won't study much at home. just mere last minute revision before exams or just relying on tuitions. but i'm fortunate that my result ain't that bad. OKAY. i've to highlight this, i'm not bragging about myself.


don't get the wrong idea like. oh, she's just trying to boast that she didn't need to study and yet did quite ok?! OR! or she's trying to say we're stupid?! or more of your useless thoughts. come on peeps. grow up!


if i know how to put 100 and 1 % more effort i would have done so years before alright. you think you can just study by saying " i wanna study!!! " or what?! by burying yourselves onto your textbooks. try so if you can yo! geeez!!

MOOD ?! i'm dead exhausted! i was fatigued by today's school which was unfrotunately nowhere near fun! my mind is now filled with nothing but numbers and numbers. seriously, today sucks! i'm both wearied and pissed for heaven sake!!!


you see, first was a spoilt brat! and now, an arrogant brat, who's said to be exclusive and what else, acting smart! geeez! it's no use for defending ya know. coz explanation is simply futile. it'll only fell on deaf ear anyways.





well, whatever! ain't gonna elaborate anymore. i'm suffering from insomnia! i can't sleep for heaven sake. i'm dead serious ya know. see, i've been sleeping late in the morning really! i can only fall asleep around 2+ even though i've off my light at around 11.30 pm. geeez! i'm in desperate need for sleeping pill to ease this 'hunger to sleep' of mine! it's no wonder my 'battery' is drain faster these days. i needed to charge it so often. Gosh! i ain't wanna look like a panda from the deprive of sleep ya know.

it's been ages since i last went out with her. gotta keep the gap constant you know. i ain't wanna us to be drifting anymore further.





my face there is really gone i believe. my smile look so fake. geeez. can't believe that's me. hehe.





i swear i love her! ! ! =D








geeeez! my face certainly looked overly excited. haha.








we intended to imitate someone but it's a complete failure. we can't stop laughing yo! hahax!! the second picture is quite a success!





keep on smiling! till the day the sun die and our destiny have decide, for us to say goodbye! =D





this friendship we've just build, let's make it everlasting!





picture of the day!
i love this photo so very much. =D

i'm not spoiled to such extend for godsake! it's not like i act like one brat who'll constantly throw tantrum when i don't get what i want! i'm not to such extend where i'll use money to get everything that i want! ! !





and! ! for heaven sake! my dad ain't that rich that as though he owns the world. it's not like bill gates is my dad?! well, if he is, i might consider bathing with money or something?! he ain't donald trumph, who owns tons and tons of buildings in USA! jeeez! he's just a normal working man! who have a small empire of his own! he can't buy a castle or a diploma yo!





it's not like i'm staying in a mansion as huge as this?! i'm so damb pissed today! it's not like i'm dying to be the first or anything. chill mans! i'm not that desperate! it's not like i'll die or rot if i'm not the first or anything. but i ain't that stupid to not be able to get in to a university alright!