BELLAMORE

2009-02-23T02:56:00.000-08:00

You know there's time when you feel that the world is against you?
When the sensitivity in you engulfed the real you?
When your pride made you even more obstinance?

Smile? is that sincere ?
laugh? That facade won't last.

Why not stop?
Why not talk?
why not think?

right or wrong?
true or false?
love or hate?
friends or foe?

you see nothing will end without a start?
Hatred won't cease without love.

why not start now?
what's done, so be it.
it's doesn't matter who's at fault.
Past has gone, new has come.

Ears, listen not.
Eyes, proves not.
What listen and proves is heart.
Ask. Think. Feel. Sense.
The answer lies there.

i'm here. They're here. Everyone's here.
Just listen. seek and feel.
remorse or guilt don't be.
friendship or love need no apology.

APOLOGY. ( melivia. )

2009-02-13T04:13:00.000-08:00

DANG! how much have i missed here? well, i'm finally,thank god, updating this page of mine. it's been ages! well, i'm finally secondary five and soon, i'll be going to america,hopefully. gotta depend on my results. =D tell me what have i missed here? haaa! that's the recent picture taken with tika. been ages since we went out!

oh.. i'm serious. it's been far too long since i smiled like that! hahax!! well, i love beta to the core. she's my sweetest drug! her existence itself is already a blessing. haha!

well, that's an outing with heryani a few weeks back.

taken on dick's bday party. can't remember much anyways. been weeks back.

weell, i'm excited to show this! i'm serious. it's a photo i'm most proud of. tooks me much effort to get this photo you know.

well......

its.........

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it's the house where Obama's stayed in Indonesia. you knoww.. when his mum married an indonesian. hahaha! i've searched for this house for age! Obama's my role model you know! so i'm desperate enough to search for his 'EX' house. =D

that's roughly a summary! hahax!! see, school's hectic these days. " welcome to sec 5!" damb! all teachers are saying that. so a reply to it was. " thank you for the sarcastic remarks! " though it's true. anyways. tomorrow's V day! V V V V V ! i've spread my 'love' + love to people" today. hahax! it's an homemade chocolate. dang! so ridiculous for me to do it. hahax!! i've sacrifise my microwaves and fridge ya know.

2008-09-19T08:54:00.000-07:00

you know meeting some "people" who always get on someone's nerves is inevitable. like hypocrites, one who only know how to wallow in self pity and some bunch out there even who have this so called vey "in-dated" trend which is the "die die won't admit" personality. geeeeez!! imagine how bloodcurdling it is to meet/talk/listen to them for like till the day you die?!

i really can't stand those who only know how to drown themselves in self pity! geeez! get a life mans. the world won't come to a standstill and wait for ya! don't try to seek attention by shedding crocodile tears. jeeez! it's so very infuriating. don't be that low to resort to such low actions!

and there's this rediculous trend where acting so vey humble is known as cool?! which dictionary are you bunchy reading yo?!

"ahhh! i'm sure won't make it! " and " sure fail! " in conclusion is denying compliments that is given!

i abhor such goofballs outthere!! compliments are meant to be given a " thank you! " as reply. i'm sure we are taught such things! it's known as basic manners!

2008-09-12T07:21:00.000-07:00

this week is totally my "N-O" week. i don't know which black cat or which ever idiot had passed me this ~~fatal~~ disease known as " BADLUCK ! " i was lectured ! said to be " an arrogant self-claiming genius " and today followed by lectures on this topic " not putting effort! " geeeez!

I'm NOT PUTTING ANY EFFORT?! well, yeah! honestly speaking, i've not really put in effort but it can't be help you know. i don't know how to put in effort. see, usually i won't study much at home. just mere last minute revision before exams or just relying on tuitions. but i'm fortunate that my result ain't that bad. OKAY. i've to highlight this, i'm not bragging about myself.

don't get the wrong idea like. oh, she's just trying to boast that she didn't need to study and yet did quite ok?! OR! or she's trying to say we're stupid?! or more of your useless thoughts. come on peeps. grow up!

if i know how to put 100 and 1 % more effort i would have done so years before alright. you think you can just study by saying " i wanna study!!! " or what?! by burying yourselves onto your textbooks. try so if you can yo! geeez!!

2008-09-10T06:04:00.000-07:00

MOOD ?! i'm dead exhausted! i was fatigued by today's school which was unfrotunately nowhere near fun! my mind is now filled with nothing but numbers and numbers. seriously, today sucks! i'm both wearied and pissed for heaven sake!!!

you see, first was a spoilt brat! and now, an arrogant brat, who's said to be exclusive and what else, acting smart! geeez! it's no use for defending ya know. coz explanation is simply futile. it'll only fell on deaf ear anyways.

well, whatever! ain't gonna elaborate anymore. i'm suffering from insomnia! i can't sleep for heaven sake. i'm dead serious ya know. see, i've been sleeping late in the morning really! i can only fall asleep around 2+ even though i've off my light at around 11.30 pm. geeez! i'm in desperate need for sleeping pill to ease this 'hunger to sleep' of mine! it's no wonder my 'battery' is drain faster these days. i needed to charge it so often. Gosh! i ain't wanna look like a panda from the deprive of sleep ya know.

2008-09-07T06:02:00.000-07:00

it's been ages since i last went out with her. gotta keep the gap constant you know. i ain't wanna us to be drifting anymore further.

my face there is really gone i believe. my smile look so fake. geeez. can't believe that's me. hehe.

i swear i love her! ! ! =D

geeeez! my face certainly looked overly excited. haha.

we intended to imitate someone but it's a complete failure. we can't stop laughing yo! hahax!! the second picture is quite a success!

keep on smiling! till the day the sun die and our destiny have decide, for us to say goodbye! =D

this friendship we've just build, let's make it everlasting!

picture of the day!
i love this photo so very much. =D

2008-08-28T00:24:00.001-07:00

i'm not spoiled to such extend for godsake! it's not like i act like one brat who'll constantly throw tantrum when i don't get what i want! i'm not to such extend where i'll use money to get everything that i want! ! !

and! ! for heaven sake! my dad ain't that rich that as though he owns the world. it's not like bill gates is my dad?! well, if he is, i might consider bathing with money or something?! he ain't donald trumph, who owns tons and tons of buildings in USA! jeeez! he's just a normal working man! who have a small empire of his own! he can't buy a castle or a diploma yo!

it's not like i'm staying in a mansion as huge as this?! i'm so damb pissed today! it's not like i'm dying to be the first or anything. chill mans! i'm not that desperate! it's not like i'll die or rot if i'm not the first or anything. but i ain't that stupid to not be able to get in to a university alright!

2008-08-27T06:03:00.000-07:00

they are, struggling to survive. the food they recieve is so meagre and they might not even have a proper shelther. see the huge difference between them and us?

they eat that ! ! ! ! and we?????

we're eating mcdonald more that even we can remember. i bet those children who are stuck in the poverty cycle never once, tried or know the taste of bigMac.

see their school and ours?! they're dying to go to school. and worst still, some does not even have a school to attend.

they struggle, they are constantly tormented! at their age, they have to suffer thousands time more than us! they cried. but,

they still smile. coz there's still alot of good samaritans out there who are willing to lend their hand and ease these childrens' pain. hehe. we are fortunate people. so let's give them our support too erh. be it from a mere simple action as praying to God. =D

this blog song of mine is sending a message to whole world ya know. one support from us, one hope for them. =D we make the difference. we can change their destiny yo! we can be a good samaritans too!

Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love had never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love had never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love had never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

i sounded so noble erh! =D but i'm giving support to the poor children out there yo! please be fortunate for the way you are now! i'm glad! to have a great family! parents who can support me and provide me with the luxury i'm enjoying. i can eat mcdonald, which i just ate today. i can go to school, though i'm kinda lazy.

2008-08-21T06:53:00.000-07:00

thursday passed so fast. and tomorrow, stacy is gonna go to england. we just had our last hug just now, and i'm really controlling myself not to cry erh. since we both cried yesterday. it's just too sad.

Best friends for life, that's You and I,
Eternally blessed, every day that goes by.
Sobbing through sad times, laughing through fun,
Trusting each other, since our friendship begun.

Fondest memories, of years gone by,
Reassuringly, knowing, Our friendship wont die.
In times of trouble, there's me and You,
Each challenge arisen, we've made it through.
Nights full of laughter, outweigh the tears,
Doubting each other, NEVER, in ten years.
Stronger and stronger, Our friendship grows,

For You my friend, my love overflows.
Opposites attract, but we're two of a kind,
Respect of the highest form, ever to find.

Lucky and greatful, for the day that we met,
It's a friendship so special. For lifetime it's set.
Forever and always, right up 'til the end,
Everlasting love and respect, for my best ever friend..

got it from somewhere. it's written for the writter's best friend. and i'm presenting it to my bestfriend too. my beloved rock, stacy.

2008-08-20T05:48:00.000-07:00

i'm feeling so blue. my girlfriend is going to england in only 2 days time. i'll so fcking miss her. can you imagine, i can no longer seek the refuge of her whenever i'm feeling down. i can no longer pour all my anguish to her. i'm losing another friend. this time she's already like a blood related sister, my sole of confidence, my rock. geeez! i so wish that friday will never come.

for TEN years i've known her. since primary one. when i'm still so young. i've always been very selfish you know. but she along with beta and bella is always there for me. it's not that easy to build such friendship alright. my ego and my princess" attitude. they're able to stand it till today and remain my best friend. =D

well, don't bother about the face. i'm so fcking ugly there. i love them so very much alright. and now, there's no longer the four of us. but left three. and gradually we all will have to walk our different path of life.

once again, don't bother about the face. hehe. see, i'm also lucky to this superb girlfriend of mine. though, we aren't spending time together much already. but she's also left an irreplaceable memories. we've been through ups and down. going through bliss and sorrow. but i love her much.

i'm also glad to have these two beautiful girls as part of my life. though it's only a short period of time, but i'm 'click' with them. it's though i have known them for years alright.

i'll miss her so much. i don't even want to imagine to part from her. she's like a family to me! ! i love her so much. our bittersweet memories is so very precious and unforgettable.

i'm serious. i might wept a bucket for godness sake. no! maybe even burst into hysterical tears. today might be a special day. once in a lifetime. its 20082008! but today is also the day where the four of us had our last feast, last reunion! before stacy's gonna go england. okay, i know we'll definitely meet again. but it's still painful to part alright. MY LOVELY GIRLFRIEND

2008-08-18T01:13:00.000-07:00

i've bought my very own violin! well, i bought months ago i think. hehes. but i'm just updating since i've been on a long hiatus already. and i've join a violin class too. superb erh?! hehes.

2008-08-14T06:57:00.001-07:00

you know what! that's my new phone now. my mum just bought it out of the blue. well, it's a nice one isn't it. though i've always wanted a flip flop phone, but this is ain't bad at all. it's cool if you see it now and then. well, i just got it today! it's of course, i'm reluctant to part with my N73 since i've already used it like for 1 year or something. now, i've got myself and E71! haha. though i'm not really 'into' phones now and then, it's just basically a gadget for me to send msg or call.

well, i know i'm on hiatus for way to long! my blog is already dead for good somehow. hahax!! but now i'm writing you see. since i can't wait to announce it to the whole world that i've changed my phone. hehe. anyways, its OLYMPIC! ! it's a pity that taufik hidayat is out like so early? 2004 gold medalist is out?! even before semi final! WHAT? jeeez! i'm so bloody pissed. i so love michael phelp. he's a like the swimming rookie of the century! jeeez! he have 11 gold medal with him already?! that like imposibble!

see how gorgeos he is?! dang it!! hahax!! the USA basketball team is also way too cool! you see how they defeat china and angolia. they're way to relax in playing erh! hahax!! with wade, lebron and kobe! Arggghh! can they even be defeated. it's just a pity thought, allen iverson is not in the team! he's my idol! they best point guard ever!

i'm not on my study mood! prelims are so unlike prelims. i'm not studying at all. instead of studying, i'm more to plunge myself to computers. i know i'm sure not gonna do well for my math paper one. and geog won't do! i'm like using my own word for every single question. on the other hand, for english paper 1, i 'think' i'll make less spelling mistakes. hehes. it's ironical isn't it, using many vocab but flunk it spelling. hahax!!

2008-04-07T07:36:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI! short Q&A : what if one day you wake up and find yourself turning into a girl/boy?

seriously, i've wanted to try being a boy you see. but provided if i turned into one hot hunk like one in anime/manga. hahax!! but anyways, who won't freak out upon finding yourself turning into a boy/girl?!?! i'll scream myself till i've lost my voice alrite. imagine, you woke up with an adam apple, beard, stubble, and totally flat chested. hahax!! what will i do? first of all, i'll rushed to my brother'sroom and grab his clothes! secondly, i'll draw all my money and fly to USA or anywhere, and find one pathetic doctor to cure me. hahaax!! anyway, it's just today's compo tittle. =D

short Q&A : how do i find today's investiture?

one and a half thumbs up. hehes. of couse, i still prefer the previous investiture. yeah, yeah, say whatever you wanna. hahax!! but, it's still a huge success, without any obvious mistake made you see. well, it's a sad case to some poor soul who recieve booohs". hohos. i'm not evil, i'm just being frank. worst, there's a huge blister on both my legs...........

short Q&A : How's today house warming(whatever!)?

brilliant. i've had alot of fun, seriously. it's been quite some times ever since i laughed my ass out. well, basically, dick, beta, justin, sze ping, aaron, felicia and OZZ came over to my house and had dinner i guess. followed by watching the orphanage which is horrible. i almost pee in my pant to due shock. hahax!! i'm lucky, thank God, you gave me a strong heart. hahax!! everything ended at 7.30 i guess. =D thanks for the day people.

short Q&A : comments on tomorrow?

arrgggghhh! i hated tuesday so much. why? cause there's this chinese and geography. worst, i've got two ACT. how horrible things could be. my brain cells is already drained till there's nothing left. it's a good thing that i've no tuition tomorrow. hohos. well people, i'm gonna attend violin lesson. hehes. not confirmed, but i'm considering.

well people, earth's calling me. i'm turning in. a long hectic day! jada!!!! chiaoos. sayonara.

2008-03-10T08:43:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI! it's 11.43pm and i've got school at 8am. imagine?! lessons during holiday? what's the point of calling it holiday then. booohs. anyways, i'm so deprived of sleep. i slept at 3am and have to wake up at 6.30?! DURING HOLIDAY! jeeez, so really pissed off. there's this huge pile of homework awaits me. there's tuitions too, not to be forgotten. and worst still, it's holiday. argggghh!

well, i took back my report book. there's nothing to be proud about i guess. well, at least i passed everything. =) i can't believe mr chua said that my maid help me carry my bag to school! PLEASE!! ruined my reputation alright. it made me as though i'm some spoilt brat or something, those whom only rely on parents money or something. arggggghhh! ~~RUINED!!~~ i don't alright. never, i've ever called my maid to carry my bag. if it's books, i have to admit of couse. hehes.

tomorrow there's school and english tuition. dang it! my scheadule is liked so packed of tuitions and schoools.
~~MONDAY:~~ 8am-12pm chinese mock test, followed my chinese tuition
~~TUESDAY:~~ lessons at school, english tuition
~~WEDNESDAY:~~ CIP at school, chinese tuition
~~THURSDAT:~~ there's this bloody leadership training
~~FRIDAY:~~ english tuition, dentist
~~SATURDAY:~~ -
~~SUNDAY:~~ science and math tuition; 4 pathetic hour.
someone tell me where's my holiday?! do i even have time to go out. dang it! which also means, this march holiday, i've only got one pathetic saturday to enjoy myself. no difference from any school weeks.

my stomach is growling now. i only ate a burger, and hotdog. hohos. " grew up with only breads urh! " reminds me of cariina. hahax!! i'm craving for pizza and baked potato now. with some strawberry cake as dessert, and of course, with some grape panta. hohos. i'm so hungry. yeahs, i saw this huge lolipop in tampines mall two days back. it's uberly huge alrites. booohs. i guess it's milk-lemon flavour. arggghhhh! my hunger is unbearable for godness heaven sake.

well, someone asked my this questions. what's the thing you fear most? let's see, i fear thunder obviously.. i fear of being alone. and darkness freaks me at times. what's the thing you hoped to do/learn? obviously i'm dying to learn japanese and i'd love to learn to play violin. wierd urh?!
if time could rewind back? it's of course impossible, don't bother asking something that won't happened urh. but, i don't mind rewinding, maybe, everything might changed. who knows, maybe i'd still be in indonesia or something. hahax!! if you've only have one hour to live? i'd cry one litre of tears? maybe. hahax!!

it's 12.11! and earth's calling me. i'm turning in. booohs.

2008-03-01T08:49:00.000-08:00

HOI HOI! jeez! why does for saturday, one day seems like only one hour, whereas for school days, one day seems like a year to me. boohs. and seriously, i hated sunday so much, especially tomorrow. i'm having tuition for 6 hours! believe me, 6 bloody hours! i'm gonna crawl myself to my death bed alrites. booohs! pathetic life.

watched "L- changed the world" 10 thumbs up for it. see how irresistable L was. jeez! i would love to tie him up and make sure he's bound to me forever. hahax!! i sounded like some stalker from nowhere. =D anyways, this show's cool urh. but i cried one litre of tears at the ending. how could a hero die, seriously! Jeez, i hated this kind of story line alrites. sacrifising again? really wished to live? countdown of his death? jeeez! my eyes were made swollen alrites. of couse, i still love the show! i'd really love to buy the DVD and watch it all over again. hahax!! well, he share the same hobby as me! 100% lollipop lover! aarhhhh! my soulmade!

arggg! i'm just here to proudly brag about L. gonna turn in soon alrites. i don't even dare to even think about tomorrow's never ending tuition. it's already tiring to even just think about it. i'm going nuts alrites. booohs. chiiaos earth.

2008-02-27T07:22:00.000-08:00

HOI HOI! it's 11.23 earth, and i'm saying halloes! =D well, earth is calling me, and my dull blog is calling me. school's brilliant today. in fact, almost everyday. my weekends hoewever was ruined by my fever. boohs. =D beta spead her diseases in school, and i'm one of her victims. chiq too. =D hahax!! anyways, block test is officially over, well with one left for me. and people, march holiday's just a few fingers away. yayness!

i can't wait to have my long sweet sleep, to eat freshly cooked breakfast/lunch, to glue myself with my laptop and to see the earth. hahax!! of couse, it never will be that perfect. because, there's this leadership training. well, main point, i still have to make a trip to bartley secondary school. hahax!! anyways, todays a pretty hectic day for me. imagine there's three test in a day, well maybe 2 and a half. there's tuition when i get back home. and i've got pile of homeworks awaits.

P.E was horrible today, i've like done more that 30 jumping jack or something. my social study turns out to be a huge disaster, i completely went blank when it comes to community effort. D&T test was of couse, an absolute mess. i'll flunk for sure. my math result went nowhere near expectation. but still, i love today's school. =D tomorrow's bad i think, there's geography and chinese you see. my worst subject. and there's tuition, it's inevitable. booohs. hahax!!

was chatting with devil for a short time. well, it's morning there please. =D i wanna make you go HA! HA! that's the quotes for today. we kept saying this stupid phrase which was i think almost meaningless. hahax!! well, i miss him a million many. hahax!! wina too! omg, it's been ages since we meet alrites. she's always busy with her "boohs". she only remembers me when she's patheticly bored. bella's busy with hers too. i'm lonley. hahax!!

MY WAR HAS STARTED : and congratulation, my first level was completed, enemy defeated. i won, unexpectedly. =D i'm smilling so wide that my lips won't close now. hahahax!! i need to celebrate it with myself. it's almost closing the gaps. and i wanna go HA! HA! hahax!! okay, i'm not that dead serious alrites. it's a just push to enjoy life. hahax!! it boost my study mood alrites. i wanna go HA! HA! again!

well, earth's calling me again. and it's time i think, for me to cover myself in my most beautiful blanket. with my warm pillow and dearest pig. =D booohs, i wanna go ha! ha! chiiaos.

2008-02-12T06:45:00.000-08:00

HOI HOI! i've finally changed that dull blogskins of mine. my holiday's over and its barely enough for me to shop. i can't even devil for godness sake. all my 5 days were spent eating and eating. how pathetic isn't it. as though i've not eaten for few years or something. i might suffer from obesity soon! maybe soon you'll see me stuffing myself with popcorns and sweets, sitting in front of the television oogling at it. NOw, school's like finally reopen! and i'm still carrying this holiday mood of mine.

there's this huge pile of homework awaits for me. dang, it's too much that i've really forgotten what the homeworks were. EVERY subjects, there'll sure be at least one homework. imagine please people! it's a huge pile of homeworks. worst, i've not include my tuition homeworks which is alot. dang it! i'll have to go through this cycle over and over again, till N'level?! i'm gonna faint please.

today's school was nowhere near fun. but it's a bit however. i finally felt bliss today. hahax!! i guess unexpected things happened when you least expected urh. =) blahs, tuesday blues. there's all the most boring subjects on tuesday. and it's continues please. and worst, this year, every week, i have 4 days ofr chinese, which means, there's only ONE bloody day without chinese. booohs. i've got D&T which i totally detest. and there's math which is mind boggling. arggghhhh! i'm really eager for the went i'm out of bartley.

i'm totally a manga and anime maniac. what have i gotten myself into. i love the " not exsisting " man character in manga/anime. just come to me for recomendations! hahax!! i'll glady share my favourites.. hahax!! Gosh, i'm acting like some sales person. =) {old man} is gonna return in few days time, and bloody hell please, i can't meet him for godness heaven and hell sake. i've like gotta wait till june or something. well, that women{phobia} guy was so stingy that he didn't even buy me anything. he can't be that broke that he's unable to afford a sweet. booohs.

finally, i've updated somethings. hahax!! i promise, photo will be uploaded. urmmm... soon i guess? maybe.. hahax!! chiiaos.

"Should I smile because we are friends,
Or cry because that's all we will ever be"

2008-01-31T07:30:00.000-08:00

HOI HOI! alrites. i'm waiting for the clock to strikes 12 and go to sleep. my eyes pretty heavy now. don't ask me why aren't i sleeping now?! i booohs. i've got this waking up disorder or something. i'll wake up late whenever i slept before 12 alrites. anyways! i totally hate tomorrow please. imagine.. 2 period of physics which is uberly boring! 3 period of math which is looongg.. 2 period of D&T and please, it feels like 2 hours. 3 period of chinese, which i'll be having TEST! imagine TEST! arhhhh! and worst still, i've got to rush back home for my english tuition which is BOOOOHS!! someone please help this poor little girl here.. hahax!!

anyways, i've got tons of homework this year. there's no day without a homework. how pathetic isn't it? there's nothing FUN at school. plain and dull, equivelant to boring! moreover, thursday is the day, where i've gotta do tons and tons of homework. there's math test today. and how gullible am i to think that after block test, there'll be a short break or something. math test was horrible! please, horrible. it's the first time i've ever leave one question blank alrites. booohs! math's totally mind boggling. chinese too. and geography! that's the worst among all.

people, Chinese New Year is around the corner? Aren't you excited people! hohos. i'm looking forward alrites. I'm gonna go back to indonesia of course. i miss my beloved country. hahax!! devil'll be back, i think. most probably he will. hahax!! we'll meet again! YAYNESS. hahax!! and saturday i'm gonna go outing again! preparation for chinese new year you see. hahax!!

Follow the notes upon a journey
At first sight marks one's destiny
Once the voyage comes to an end
Return lies within hasty key

2008-01-19T08:56:00.000-08:00

HOI HOI! a splendid outing spent with beta. i totally love my beloved girlfriend. it's sad that cariina can't join us. boohs. hahax!! well, went to suntec city after a long bus ride. ate at tony romas. my favourite restaurant of all times. the food there is uberly delicious people, especially the potato skins and ceacer salad. hahax!! hold on my stomach, i'm getting hungry again. =D watch one crap movie, the plot is super bad. though one of the characther is a hunk. =D anyways, the movie's uberly unrealistic please.. the liberty head is destroyed? monster at new york city? oh pleaaasee.... hahax!!

saturday passes way too fast, i didn't even manage to enjoy it with all my heart pleasse... why won't weekdays be the same? tomorrow's there's a long brain straining tuition which lasted for four hours.. how am i gonna make people. schooling life is pretty dull you see. one hour seems like a year to me. help me please.....

i read cariina's blog! and i love her many. she and beta is my pillar of support. i won't be me without them alrites. my shoulders to cry on, my listening ears. i love them much! spending my days with them is awesome please. i'll laugh twice as much as the usual. and i'll talk twice as much as the usual too. hahax!! my lovely girlfriend(s), i love you like heaven and hell. hahax!!

block test are like around the corner please. and i've totally messed myself up. i forgotten my sec three work, and i've not revised at all. where's my motivation to study pleaseee... i won't wanna flunked you see. this years work is like duperly hard for godness sake. especially maths, i've mixed up the formulae. chinese is even worst, i've went from bad to worst. i need more tuitions.. maybe 24/7 non-stop. i'll be a geek for this year!!

blahs. it's 1.59 am goodnight people. =D

Have you ever felt like
all you had was gone?
That your heart was broken,
and you couldn't go on?

2008-01-13T07:02:00.000-08:00

HOI HOI! it's 11.03 pm and i'm planning to sleep after this you see. just gonna post some weekend stuff. =D tomorrow's school again! worst still, there's this dull assembly every monday morning. there's even worst, D&T for 2 hours straight. melivia do love monday so much!

my {old man} called out of the blue today. he never changed at all. please, still having his phobia" towards me. hahax!! it's been almost 3 months! we've been living on our own world and fantasy. chatted for quite some times. it's really nostalgic, come on! i can still remember the moment we first met. he who really hated ginger, really made me fume in anger. he and his attitude. -.-! hahax!! but things soon went on least expected. hahax!! we became buddy, as though i'm the spoon and he's the fork, i'm the envelop and he's the stamp! hahax!!

saturday was spent doing D&T cover page. hahax!! it's raining cats and dogs! with that bloody thunder screaming like nobody's business. well, out of a sudden, mcdonald had a blackout. of course, it wouldn't we something strange about blackout if it is in indonesia.. hahax!! anyways, cariina soon came for like about 2 hours.
what rubbish. hahax!! headed to white tangerine then and ated beef steak. i can hardly tore it apart. you see, i hated food that is hard urh. porridge is better than rice. =D head over to bella's house then. it's as though time stopped and went back to primary 6. with all the lovey dovey between beta and her thailand guy and bella with her china guy. hahax!! 9.20 headed home. =D

today my brain cells' officially finished. imagine, four hours of tuition. and to make things worst, thunder really love me alot. i was drenched when i was heading out to buy some things. stayed at home the whole day of course. -.-! studying like crazy. anyways, my conversation with ian's really stupid

ian: i'm dying..
me: really?
ian: please have some emotion towards your handsome friend!
me: -.-! oh my handsome, sexy, brainless friend, what happen?
ian: brainless is better to not be included.
me:-.-!
ian: hey, since you're my best friend i'll entrust you to keep this secret of mine.
me: what?
ian: the thing is, i need to pee!
me: RUBBISH!

anyways, secondary four is really hectic. i mean, homeworks are way too much. tuitions' alot. i really hated my chinese lesson. some stupid lion is running lose, always appears during reccess time recently. rubbish. never mind, never give up is my forte. melivia's a resilient girl after all. hahax!! as always, my motto, there's nothing melivia can't do. =D

To show my love would be a daunting task
it is hidden here under the guise
of a haunted soul wearing a clown`s mask

2008-01-08T05:28:00.000-08:00

HOI HOI! well people, i finally found my long lost blog. it's pretty dead, no it's already dead! the blogskin's barely intresting yet i didn't changed it all. i'm lazy please. school have started and it's always dull. to make thing worst, homework increases of course, and the teachers barely changed. how great..

i miss my holidays badly. my "royal" bed is screaming for me and my cells and tissues are craving for me to finish my journey and meet alice in her wonderland. i really detest waking up early! i'm currently craving for sweets. with lots of cream on it. arhhhhh! please hold on my stomach. school's bad. really bad. i'm really dozing off right after the lesson starts. especially physics and chemisty, oh pleasse, i can't hardly force my eyes to remain open. chinese is forever, mind boggling.

my holidays went almost perfect. of course my trip to china was not at all smooth. pleaase, i've got to look down when i'm walking. i ain't wanna step onto saliva. please, it's almost everywhere, there's saliva. the traffic was "good"! i don't think there's even a need for a traffic light please. the weather was tremen-supper-dously cold. i can't barely walk. let's forget about the toilet........

So deceive me and scorn me,
Try to hurt me, but these feelings will not change

2007-12-06T05:15:00.000-08:00

HOI HOI!
first and for most, my butt hurt like nobody's business please.
LESSON LEARNED : i vowed upon myself, i won't go out of town in cars.
please, i spent total of 20 hours in cars {to-back}!
not forgetting, i always have this car-sickness of mine. booohs! hahax!!
to make things worst, my car tyre burst on my way back home.
and that's like my first time in my life.
well, anyways, i loved my holiday! =D
met beta girlfriend and we had although short but sweet time. hahax!!
{old man} finally is touchable. how nostalgic pleaase.
it's been eveeeer since i chatted with him. <333'iies.
still, his phobia towards people is still happening.
i hope he'll not be diagnose with high blood preassure. * PRAY *
i'm craving for the huge vanilla chocolate lolipop!

2007-11-21T05:26:00.000-08:00

HOI HOI!
i'm having an nostalgic moment with dearest cariina.
oh god, it's really been forever ever since we talked. hahax!!
i miss her like ever. hahax!! won't type much anyways! jus to keep this blog alive.
booohs, anyways, i'll be back at december 20 for 5 days and chiiaos, adios, goodbye, sayona, selamat tingal, i am gonna go TOUR!
well, but i'm uberly pissed alrites. i've gonna bid godbye, adios, chiiaos to EUROPE!
my holiday totally CHANGE!!
i'm gonna gooo.............................C-H-I-N-A!
it's like, it's my third time there?! well, roughly there.
boohs, i'm sad alrites.. i'm gonna hold tight to my bag this time.
AINT gonna lost my passport for the second time for heavan sake.
blahs, anyways, i'm super duperly bored here. no devil around??!!
that's like, so plain! urggggh, my ears seems way too peaceful than ever.
argggghhh!! PLEASE COME BACK {OLD MAN} for heaven, melivia and my pigs sake!
beta's no where to be found too. bella too! booohs.
what a meaningless holiday.
wiina's missing in action too!! booohs.
ooops, i've been complaining i know. hahax!!

CHIIAOS, ADIOS, SAYONARA, GOODBYE!

2007-11-02T07:05:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI! i'm totally bloated for godness sake! my dinner with beta and cariina was like it's the first time we ever eated something. ate pizza and chocolate foundae with rootbear float. how delicious isn't it? hahax!! i think i'm gonna gain a thousand kilogram. blahs. anyways, had really uberly fantastic time with my girlfriend(s). they're my happiness drug please. =)

lovey duppy!!

before!!

After!

see how hungry we can get? hahax!! does people like us doesn't have to right to say our rights? to proclaim it? booohs. so what if we're a pea brain! we're not somekind of retards! it seems that people took us as though we're meant to abid to what they say! and that's really pissing me off! i want a say too!!

i love today! well at least, it give me some glimmer of hopes.i'm not that useless at all! MY hard work bear some fruits at least! hahax!! what a lovely day. it seem throwing my face aside doesn't seem so foolish at all. at least, there's some bit happiness found. and now, maybe, i'm being found, maybe i do really exsisted in your world erh. hahax!!

i'm so damb bored. will just post some rubbish picture to keep this blog of mine colourful. =D chiiaos.

Beta's loved!

oh, britney, what have you done?!

2007-10-30T04:28:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI! i'm eating my uberly delicious orange. hahax!! i'm just over doing it i know. =) well, doctors said so you know, an orange a day keep the doctor away! hohohos. see how healthy i am. i'm eating orange which contains vitamin c! hahax!! yups, indeed, rather late announcement! i've change my blog songs and skins. how lateeee?! i know.

finally, the earth flag is done! that's a great achievement for godness sake, it's like within two days only. hahax!! was the mixture of mine and pasit drawings. melivia love it. ~~hard work that counts please!~~ well, at least i contributed on something urh. i'm not that ignorant i can say. how proud am i! * BIG SMILE *

my mood is perfect these day. i'm gonna be back home! and that's wonderful. yay! i miss my beloved country! was chatting with devil few moments ago, and he's really doing fine. frankly speaking, i envy him. booohS! hahax!! blahs anyways, was talking about our school these days. which both school don't link! it's sad that the air we breathe is totally diferent, even the sky. he laughed till his jaw dropped! when i don't really say any jokes! please, i just describing my stupid dream! i dreamt about LFW and him! which are in reality wise, total stranger, yet they're a buddy in my dreams..... how rubbish!

anyway, went to school for the english lesson. waited in the canteen with beta. dang! the canteen is filled with newbiies. i mean, bartley student wannabe!
it's super crowded please. the the conversation brighted my day!!! LOVEED!! hahax!! blahs, then went to 3T2. rushing with the flags and went home. =) had tuition, like always.........

i love, i love, i love, i love and i love. even if i didn't really existed in your world but i love, i love, i love, i love and i love. =) big smile* even the slightest conversation or glance is perfectly fine with me. it never been in my life, i've become like this.. you've done it. with this thought, i'm really reluctant to stept away. ~~i'm really reluctant to let i slipped out of my hand so fast..~~ it's as though my first ever toy! how i wanna grab it and carry it around. i'll create a little space in the corner of mind...........

I can give a shoulder to cry on
And provide a caring ear
For you to pour your soul out
I'll take away any fear
chiiaos....

2007-10-24T10:09:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI!! my legs is aching like nobody's business, okay, thanks to yesterday learning journey. i think i've walked like the whole singapore urh. 100% tiring. but yesterday outing is kind of, okay! it's not like what i've imagine please, i thought we might visit the jungle to see monkeys or something. hahax!! went to discovery center, it's my third time i think. went to army museum or something! i thought of elephant! hahax!! when times in war? thailand?elephant? teased pasit about it anyways. hahax!!

okay, i'm stuck at home for the whole day! due to ache! it's uber difficult to walk up and down the staircase for godness sake! was watching videos the whole day. and litespeed of couse. what rubbish! i've done partially, just random click anyways. chatted in phone with devil. finally, he's contactable! and that's like, what took you such a long time please?! i thought he've been stuck in an unknown island or something. blahs. anyways, chatted lots and lots of rubbish. wonderful! i laugh till my jaws almost dropped. hahax!!

i just can't get it right to my sense.. why not stick to a say? and but turn everything 180 degree? ohhh, what rubbish please. i just won't believe a single " empty word " that's coming out anymore! yahs, that's what my country language describe, MUNA { please, it's not my school's muna! } okay, the irony is , doing something that's use to cricitise others. how rediculous isn't it. ~~rubbish!~~ hahax!! making a fool, i know, i understand, and yet, i'm used to it. it's like a daily routine, day by day, problem by problem, it's just a cycle. daily breakfast i should say! booohs. what rubbish!

it seems difficult to trust. what we say were mere an empty words. none of it is real, and none of it, we can rely! please, someone have to agree! and now i know, what's life out there in the world. with all those freaks, making promises turning into an empty word. hohohohos. i came to this theory, out of random. school's endning anyways. yes, they called it HOLIDAY STARTS... but, it's again rubbish. there's still much activity for godness sake!

Icy, drizzly, blood runs down to a puddle
All the heart yearns for is a warm cuddle.
Love of the other could not be recovered.
To the grave, pain shall go undiscovered.
chiiaos readers!

2007-10-22T06:44:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI! combine results finally out, and dang, what a huge different from what i've expected. it's definitely way to low.. gotta mug hard next year. =) well, in just a blink of eyes, one crucial yet bittersweet year had passed, i'm so gonna miss those memories spent in the beloved 3N2! indeed, like what being said in cariina's blog, i'm definitely gonna missed those beautiful years with my girlfriends.

cariina's worry; her always thinking to the dark side. mans, i love influencing her!
cariina's stupid joke; which made me laugh my ass off.
cariina's craving; always, wanting to go for a shopping!
cariina's and my gossip; we love criticising others.
OURS mugging hard section; definitely for geography and SS.
huihong's lame jokes; she's very lame! i'm always laughing for godness sake.
huihong's " always wanna sleep! " ; especially during physic lesson. =)
huihong's and my complaints; we love to complaint. hahax!!
cariina's heart to heart talk; definitely going emo!
huiying's doraemon bag; plenty of sweets and chocolate!
huiying's again, joke; brighten up my ~~gloomy day!~~
cariina's complain; she's always tired. hahax!!
cariina's bookworm wanna-be; she's always wanting to study!

i love my GIRLFRIEND(S) much! not forgetting susma's complaint and jokes, loved dearly. meriina's and my chit chatiing moment, it's a bliss. =) hidayat's cold' joke, urgggggg! hahax!! balaji's forever noise, always opposing my decision for godness sake. basically, i love every tiny winy bit of 3N2! which include the teachers. even though at times, really pissed me off, but their contribution to us is overwhelming. mr koh's not funny joke, mr Ng my always favourite, mr lee's care and concern. loved! i always hated the ending of a year, it's just 180 degree changes my mood.

dang it, i've got what learning journey tomorrow. and there goes my holiday.... goodbye beautiful dreams and warm blanket with soft bed. please alright, when everyone is still sleeping, i have to wake up at 6 AM to prepare and go to school. how pathetic for godness sake. i planned to wake up at 3pm tomorrow please. and like it's from 8 am to 5 pm!!!! how tiring please, i spent my whole day, stucked doing some journey of something.

today school was simply, nothing. i regretted going to school and not having my " self proclaim holiday! " and, it's a heavy downpour at the morning. had forum with the principal and followed with meeting. it's forever long winded and boring. it's a total chaos urh. boooohs, i would have reached home earlier urh. anyways, took a nap for like only 1 hour and off to tuition. holiday, pleace come........

i miss {old man } seriously! where the hell had he went for godness sake. totally lost contact i think. i really hated people to go overseas for long term... it always ended the same, becoming stranger, i think. boooohs! no news at all, totally no fun! i've lost one listening ears.... no longer can i confide , or to seek refuge when i'm down..boooohs!! it always ended the same.

Look it's raining.
The sky is crying for your pain.
chiiaos!

2007-10-20T06:13:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI! well, it's just to prevent this plain blog of mine from rotting. please, it's really plain for godness sake. no links, no photos, no good songs! how pathetic. i'm just lazy urh! hahax!! maybe, soon i'll update something.

money, in general is the worst tyrant.. oh please, it's not that i'm the president's daughter for godness sake. it's as if money can buy everything. please, if it can, then i'll fork out all the money, rather meager of couse, i've got and buy things like friendship, love, and whatever shit. ~~pissed off!~~

school's gonna end in like few days to go, and i'm so glad please. finally, i can sigh in relieve. a year have past, and it's pretty fast. i can remember how reluctant am i to be in same class with huihong and cariina! well, at that point of time, including beta, the four of us friendship is fcuking bad! but please, now, i'm really inloved with my girlfriends. those times spent in class, mixture of feelings! basically, it's a beautiful memory! well, sitting beside cariina always made me laugh my ass out. it just won't make my day without talking rubbish with her! hahax!!

The girl who seemed unbreakable,
Broke..
The girl who seemed so strong,
Crumbled..
The girl who always laughed,
Cried..
The girl who never stopped trying,
Finally gave up..

i gave up.... =) short want today. chiiaos.

2007-10-19T06:53:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI! please, it's been ages ever since i've blogged. well, examination is officially over, and please, i'm elated for sure. finally, i can bid goodbye with my coffees, bid goodbye with to the mind boogling formulae, bid goodbye with midnight study! how wonderful isn't it? well, results were out and finally, my secondary 3 year is over. one full crucial year, i've finally get done with.

seems like i'm having my mood in writting now. hahax!! please, i've not gone online for like few weeks already.. tons of things had happened, and for sure it's partially good and bad. bad, devil's gone.. new environment, new place, the party of friends. DANG! i wonder when will be turn.. sadly now, i'll have lesser chance and time to pour out my anguish, pour out my joy and anger to him urh! boohs. ~~pissed off!~~ however, not everything that's happening is bad please. i've got outings with my beloved girlfriend(S), and of cause, my results were alrites. can't say that i'm totally pleased with it. i've just improved, yet not reaching my goals. mugging hard for next year!

holiday's around the corner too, and i'm so eager to fly back home. please give me a break here, enough of all nonsense. i want to enjoy my holiday! ! ! touring overseas, and EUROPE! i'm coming! hahax!! i loved tour, tour and tour! if only please, there's no nonsense like camp or what so ever. hahax!! secondary four? yups, it's soon i'll be able to graduate. having dreams? i can't think of any! what about dream? future? following what i wanted to do, having interest with? if only i can think of one! i've to dreams and goals to seek please, forget about my interest, i'm totally interested in NOTHING!

today's school, other than taking result, the rest was pathetic. it's uber boring for godness sake. i'm fervently praying for holiday to arrive. =) was having some stupid conversation with girlfriend today at the canteen while waiting for the pathetic rain to stop. mans, momo can act! hahax!! she definitely is my acting rival! hahahax!! the rain love me so much! was running like some crazy freak to the bus stop, i thought the rain won't stop please. but! the rain immediatly stopped when i opened my house door! that's like urhhhh! what's the sky problem please.

~~i'm even wondering whether i really ever like someone...~~ there's no wrong in it right? maybe i'm just having my games... yahs.. like the past old me. well, that's what people say about me. it could be you know, should i say, in the harsh way, i'm born to be one arh! i'm even wonder what i'm doing for the past few months is correct.. or just, i'm doing it blindly without much notice. please, if that still mantain my image the, just don't give a thought arh! basically a waste of effort. still, i've not parked my ship at any port yet.. maybe.. on search..

i really do love writting arh! i think i can write a composition by now. finally, melivia blogged. it's not that rotten anymore, i pressume. chiiaos.

shakesphere says " to be or not to be, that's the question.. " { agreed! }

2007-10-10T04:44:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI! alrights,i, myself have realised it too! my blog is already liveless. hahax!! yups, of couse i'm busy please. hahax!! exam's like on the process! today's a big day urh! HAPPY B'DAY BETHARIA C'YANNK, MUSHROOM & WU ZUN! hahax!! today's wu zun's b'day too alright. hahax!! i'm such a fans! =D

urggg, i hate it when everytime i wanna write something, the mood's gone! boohs. hahax!! well, tomorrow is geography and oral! i've made my preparation alright.
sleep at the noon?! OK! { i slept for 5 hours! }
topics to study!?! OK!
coffee and supper for late at night?!?! OK!
hahax!! i ain't wanna fail geography please. memorising just kills my brain cells. i just feels like i've been reading the same old things over and over again. nonsense urh! -.-!!

ain't gonna update much today! hahax!!
chiiaos.

2007-09-27T03:44:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI!! school's pathetic, no, i should say, today's pathetic. melivia how dumb could you be please. have you had enough of yourself? being such an simple-minded freak! was talking to devil for the past few minutes! i ain't a princess, with thousand of bucks on me, i ain't someone who'll get what i want and bragged as though the world is mine. maybe i'm just an ordinary girl. nope, i ain't seeking any pity. cause i don't feel i need one. i still love to be corky at times, i'm still having the princess in me! {old man} you knew what i always wanted urh. :D

well, today was a heavy downpour. thank God, i need not have to fight against the rain in the cold wet road back then. i'm dry. hahax!! i LOVE reccess time. hahax!! well, today momo was in a real bad mood. =X i'm sorry girlfriend. what i thought was simply a prank or something, so pressume it as one. however, it never cross my mind that it was the fact. =) well, another {old man's word! } which i've written it once maybe. one have to live for the future and not the past! someday, a star will shine when all the lights in your world has fade away.

i remembered word by word what {old man} says. hahax!! anyways, back today's topic. lessons were nothing in particular. alright, days had past and i'm in loved with that smile of yours. =) i can't be sure yet. however, please let me enjoy these moments, let me enjoy the moments and remember it deep down. it's a hell alot of fun alright. it's far more breath taking than usual. i love to fight against time. to get just a simple glance. i ain't wanna spoil this mood of mine. i hope time will prove to me, that's just a simple story. ~~destiny decides the game.~~ :D

i want to study! someone please be my tutor! booohs. i wanna at least achieve my aims alright. hahax!! tomorrow there's school again. and that's really a pain on my ass. i've got tuition tomorrow again. and there ORAL! i'm so gonna flunk! my chinese speaking is ain't good. typical indonesian speaking. booohs. it's uber embarassing to fail please. =X ~~if i scored 20 will be more than enough!~~ a border line passing is enough. i'm not being humble please. i'm blurting out the truth. hahax!! chiiaos.

2007-09-25T05:02:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI! today's basically not melivia's day! how foolish can i be please. i'm so... urhhhh. unexplainable. i can't believe i really did it and it's like, i never expected it. mans, i've ruined my reputation arh! it's never my intention to seek glance or what so ever! godness mans, i've done something terribly bad, something uber ugly. but..=D i can't say today's bad day. i've been smilling for the whole afternoon. if it's real, than please, i ain't wanna any prank to happen! i can't help to be going through the same cycle again, it's pathetic. no lies, no joke and no pain please. i can't be sure that i'm mentally prepared to walked through another bumpy road. arhhhh! i don't think i can't sleep today, it's super -.-! i've thrown my face away, and i'm just hoping no impression made{bad}!

well, never mind about it. i'll pray and hope urh. hahax!! today's school is exciting. =D but don't get me wrong arh, the lesson is always plain and dull. well, there's DOUBLE SHOCKING NEWS i've heard today. one is however, i've predicted it ages ago, i'm not blind. i kept quiet doesn't mean i don't take noticed of my surrounding. hahax!! but the another is really unexpected. i guess horns can never be hidden. but well, i've simply got no comment. it's just freaks me out alrites. however the irony is, beta's the want who's more shocked than me. hahax!! i mean, even stacy can see it. hahax!! well, i'm not suprised nor i'm taken aback by it urh. lets just, don't give any thought. what's over is already the past. devil's taught me this " we should be living for the future and not the past! " well, since my old man said so, why bother. hahax!! but i'm laughing lahs. today's fun.

today's lesson is nothing. there's test and i guess i can do it. i'm smart, that's what people expect me to be. D&T was super boring. it's always a good sleeping pill. SS was alright, i've recieved my test paper and i passed. scored badly though. had math and i got back my test paper again. it's not what i've expected. i mean i've scored more than it. hahax!! guess my brain is still as big as a peanut, better than a pea. hahax!!

went home and took some nap. was chatting with wina and she was laughing at me. plleeeease, how ugly can i be. i looked as though like some weirdo- dang it, i've totally ruined my reputation, goodbye my face. i can say that i'm pretty sure and as well, unsure about what's inside. there's no butterfly in my stomach, but sometimes my heart skips a beat! what does this means than. i don't wanna ended up being the one, " who've lost! " i've lost once and i hope to win this battle. it's demoralising if i lost again this time. i'm not playing, i'm seriously not. i'm just taking things easy. no pressure, just stay chill. but i'm scared one day, everything will end up the other way round! i hope cupid is right this time! please improved you aiming! i dearly begged.

tomorrow there's school and i really wished i'm not going tomorrow. i can't be sure that'll be normal. urhhhhh! i'm stupid. very stupid. there's english summary test tomorrow. there's nothing to learn anyways. =D my mind is just not with me. i'm worrying now. hahax!! {old man} if in a situation like this, what advice will you give me? what will you do anyways? hahax!!

hows the feeling back then? happy i pressumed. maybe it's an identical feeling. =D i can't read people's mind and i'm scared with the things deep down. i'm just wondering how does it feel to keep everything inside. urhhhh! i wouldn't be able to do it. it's stressful. but it's awesome, at least people can do it. hahax!! my nick name played well now, it's reality. without a clue, i'm playing the fool! how realistic please. does the word trust so hard to be turn into action. { udah gw pikirin kok, suatu hari bakal terjadi. hati lhoe gak sekeras batu! pasti bakal masuk ke dalam dunia "nya". gak sedih dan gak marah, lg pula gw gak bisa ngerubah mendapat orang! toh gw bukan tuhan! }

i'm having the urge to study now. time won't wait for me, exam's around the corner. just a few blink, DANG! the moment of truth have arrive. hahax!! i can't wait for EOY to be over. =D chiiaos.

2007-09-24T06:09:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI! my weekends has ended, and school week has began! i'm so reluctant to go back to school please. i would always dragged my feet to school. but, due to {you} i had uber fun at school! i've got to fight with my instinct to manage a glance! hahax!! it's breath taking and similarly, i'm having fun! =D see the big smile i'm showing now. hahax!!

well, school was horrible. i'm so sleepy alrites, which of couse, almost causes me to be late! it's all thanks to my brother and his friend. watching soccer till late at night! i can't sleep for godness sake. hahax!! hear the good news people, Man Utd won against Chelsea! and that's phew~ finally. but people, i pity Mourinho. blahs anyways, my favourite won! hahax!! but i'm still keep to date with tennis and Basketball alrites. roger federer and of couse, Iverson is still loved by melivia! hahax!!

well, went to school and like there's as though a Tsunami happenning on Singapore. it'll really make a good hair dryer alright. rain was then, predictably came! had a boring assembly as per usual, and i'm at the back dozzing off. the olden music make it even worst! a good, sleeping pill! had chinese and was practising for oral. i'm so sure that i'm gonna flunk! my chinese is obviously, Indonesian speaking. likewise for my english maybe. hahax!!

Math was brain killing, especially today's test. was that really meant for us? or was it meant for some nerdy? hahax!! my mind went blank alrights. whether it's believed or not, who cares. hahax!! ~~i know i'm smart lahs.~~ Chemistry test after reccess, i don't really put in much effort. and it prove me right, i've got a big cross for the first question. english was urmmm.... pathetically, nothing. =D i lovedd today's school lahs. muchly loved! *

went home and had my tuition. it's a daily routine for me ok. well, i've planned to stay awake from 4th october onwards. coffee have been prepared. hahax!! none believed me please, even devil was laughing at me as though i cracked some Lame jokes. he never laughed when it's not a joke, and he grumble when i said something that's meant to be one. how wierd that guy is. anyways, was talking to him about today's activity and he was laughing like some crazy old man. well, he's my old man. booohs. =X it's just a number of days to go... i'm sad. =(

my back is not cooperating well with me today. it's aching like noone's business. i'm not that old right? having ostheoporosis[ no idea how to spell] at this young age? please.. don't give me a nightmare. i ain't wanna have a walking stick with me! hahax!! i can't even imagine. but i'm not lacking of vitamin. and it's not my fault for being unable to drink milk. i'll have a bad tummy ache. hahax!! sooo, jumping to conclusion, urmmmmm... i'm healthy. hahax!!

tomorrow there's school people. please cry for melivia! exam's like few more days to go! helped me to study well. D= i think i need to drink pig brain, chicken essence, bird nest, herbal and more vitamins. i need a 5GB memory card in my brain. =D there's 2 tuition for me tomorrow, and in total it's 4hour. booohs. how tired i'll be tomorrow. and it's like for godness sake, continuous. i'm even better than ainstine i think.

i can't help but to turn whenever your shadow is seen. i can't help but to smile when i'm imagining. i can't help but to blush whenever i saw that smile. hahax!! i'm having a fatal disease now, it's called addiction. =D i hope i ain't thinking too much, i hope cupid is right this time. i won't pin hope and i won't stept up. lingering in this place, now, it's fun enough. hahax!! i'm looking forward for my next day.. to play against my instinct again.

i'm now craving for pizza. hahax!! gotta study i mean for now. =D lot's to catch up but not to be left out, i'm watching video's. i won't let you down ** Chiiaos.

2007-09-22T09:37:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI! well, aren't we just a ray of fcuking sunshine. hahax!! i totally love today's outing with my girlfriend. we didn't really do much though, just slacking the whole day at MCD! was supposed to be studying but.. i think i did studied a little. i can't be failing for the exam right.

it's 12.40 am and i'm still not asleep. well, it'll be early if there's no church tomorrow. and believe me, i've got to wake up at 8 am! and that's uber early. anyways, today woke up at 11+ and prepared to meet beta! the bus is taking it's own sweet time! i planned to buy uniform, but cancelled. i'm in a bad situation you know, i can't possibly be hiding for the rest of my days in BSS! hahax!! i ain't wanna be "pumped" for godness sake. =D

went to MCD and was so called studying. was waiting for dick's and chao han's arrival. hahax!! there's this stupid, useless, IQ question given by dick! i'm going insane while doing it! it's really frustrating please. i think i've got to hire another tuition teacher, just to increase my IQ! hahax!! but please, i can't possibly give up right? i love my pride! hahax!! and blahs, there's more stupid jokes being told. hahax!!

my beloved cousin is finally back from indonesia. hahax!! alrites, went home and just surrender myself to my bed! i'm so dead beat please. chatted at phone for some time! i realised that i've laughed alot. i'm being jovial please. was chatting with beloved wina. <3 we're practically talking craps.

[translated in english*]
wina: i remembered on japanese word!
me: ??
wina: kan sam mita { i don't know if it's correct }
me:............ that ain't japanese, it's korean arh!
me: i teach you one arh!
me: champoo, champoo, winachan, champoo!
wina: ............

how stupid can we be please! hahax!! i'm so deeply in love with that champoo thing. hahax!! momo tan can be my witness! i've been singing that to her on friday! hahax!!
champoo, champoo, momo chan, champoo! hahax!! just tell me i'm being such an idiot! hahax!! anyways, i've just realised i can't console people. what i'll do is just CHEER UP this two word! hahax!! i'm such a complete failure. ain't sweet talker, 100% straight forward. hahax!!

laugh please. =D i ain't not in mood to write emo'' things today. it's hard to act urh. there's no inpiration! tomorrow gonna meet cariina and beta girlfriend(s). i'm looking forward! =D chiiaos.

As we dwell here in the shadows
Desperate to be free
Longing for the sun
To chase our troubles away
To bathe us in light
But here in the shadows we’ll stay

2007-09-18T06:37:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI! i've killed dozens of my brain cells. all thanks to SS test! i can't figure out why in the hell, we had to study this boring subject? i mean shouldn't we live for the future and not for the past?! nonsense! i've like memorised till my eyes blurred and my hair dropped! and there's no fruit being bear! i totally black out you know! so to say, essay question = melivia use her own her essay! rubbish!

D&T lesson was uber funny! billy was making fun of HL MILK and i'm like laughing my as out! hahax!! how mean can us be alright. Momo was furious then. blahs, someone destroyed her hair! i mean, she had put in many effort in doing it. how childish can people be please? if only they were in her shoe, how frustrated can you be please! hahax!! the other lessons were just plain! went home with jereline and weifang! dang it please! we ran to catch up with bus 43 and we looked like an idiot!

alright, people are all in anguish and i don't find any reason why. should be one even if we're not? i find it kind of awkward being something we're not! blahs, anyways, had my tuition and was talking about o'level and n'level thingy. it already became a burden to me! dragged my feet home and just throw myself in the bed! i'm still in no mood to study you know. there's lacking of motivation and since i can't solve the puzzle so why bother.

i'm just uploading for the sake to lengthen my post please.

i would cry if such things really happened you know. i'll hope the ground would opened up and swallow me down. hahax!! something to declare! melivia's smart! i can score 100 for every subject you know! it ain't to cheer myself up, it's to be proud of myself arh! so proud arh! hahahax!! i think can straight away go to 5E1 arh! personally for myself, taught by the principal herself. hahahax!! please laugh lahs!

chiiaos.

2007-09-16T05:56:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI! it's just in a blink of eyes, and weekend's over. how frustrating please. i've got to bid goodbye with my endless sleep! i'm supposed to be studying now, but i don't know where to start. how lost can i be please. i seemed so motivated, but yahs, maybe it's just no action talk only! hahax!! believe, i'm still having my towel on top of my wet hair.

i've shed tears during this weekends. yahs, i spent my weekends going to church, washing my sins. i cried alright, but it's not because i've done a terrible sins but i'm just feeling that i'm kind of unfilial to my parents. oooh, what a good daughter i am! hahax!! alrites, saturday went for IMAGE celebration! and today, woke up uber early for church and went out with beta to PS. ated pizza and it's like after a few months already! hahax!! waited for cariina, dick and chao han. went for a movie, watched neraka 19. that movie is pathetic! what a boring one! the plot is uber boring. however, i've stayed awake to oggle at one of the character. he's a real hunk urh! hahax!!

i've realised that exams is like around the corner. and i really have much to prepare! hahax!! was talking about where's the best place to study! i've got one. it's in the toilet! there's no distraction and it's very peaceful! please thank me if it's useful to you! hahax!! alright i'm so sad to announce! that i have an ulcers in the back of my mouth! ! ! ! that's painful! any remedy? before i've to take the last choice?!?! and that's by putting salt! hahahax!!

i've got much to say but i just don't know where to start. there's 101 story i wanna say, there's 101 sins i wanna declare, there's 101 secret i wanna shout ,there's 101 sorry i wanna beg for and there's 101 of hatred i wanna screamed out loud. but maybe this is just my life, my road, my story! hahax!! tomorrow's school again! and it's really pathetic. there's teachers i've got to meet, there's freaks i've got to see and there's tuition and not forgetting homeworks. i may explode some day! hahahax!!

CHIIAOS!! "V"

2007-09-14T05:48:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI! there's isn't a day without scolding in BSS. i think the teachers there is uber healthy, no high blood pressure or anything. in fact, they are too healthy that they can scold people everyday. oh, i "love" this school. lady of godness is on my side today! there's no SS! finally, i can give my ears some rest. hahax!! i've still got plenty of tuition tomorrow and i'm really dead beat. i wanna study but i can't concentrate, what can i do?

school is "loved" today. hahax!! SS was our free time. without any nagging and that's like a sigh of relieve. english was ok. Balaji is such a pain! hahax!! how childish we can be please, deciding on what to draw using scissors paper and stone. yeahs, that's what 3N2'iies do. PE was ok. was playing rugby or something and we look like newbiies. i totally detest the tackling part! i'm not in a WWF or something. what?! undertaker, triple H, rick flair, john cena, kane, shawn michael!?!?!?! and we've got to run bare footed please. i mean i don't mind but do something with the grass?! hahax!! Geog was nothing, forever dull! had the ACT, was doing i dunnoe what. simply can't remember.

today's really a hectic want for me. please, i've been studying for 7.30 AM to 7 PM. oh well, isn't that something. hahax!! i need some reward i guess. to be detailed, school ended at 3pm. rushed home and took a quick grab and rushed for my math tuition which ended at 5. followed then, i ran home like some idiot and immediatly continue with english tuition which ended at 7. today's totally not my day too. early in the morning, my shoe was stepped by dunnoe which fool. he who stepped on a foot forget, but she whose foot is stepped on never forgets. okay, i sounded so evil. hahax!! and on the noon, i was reprimanded outside the staff room. please, imagine how ugly can it be. and it's in front of PPL! it's like not that i skipped a grand ceremony or something.

everyone kept saying about the earthquake.. but how come that it's only me, whom never felt a thing. okay, i was sleeping at that time. hahax!! maybe my old habit is here again! i can't hear or feel anything when i'm asleep! so, as dead as a log. hahax!! sounds dangerous isn't it. what if there's really earthquake and i can't feel it. hahax!!

please, i never want that incident to occur again. it really created enough trouble for me. i think i've sacrifise enough. and i've lost enough too. i never became the last time me, i mean if i were, i won't get both happiness. i'm willing to hide behind one shadow, a shadow of a stranger... cause i find that " the now happiness " is just more important and peaceful. i find it sometime unreasonable though, why can you and i can't? but i closed one eyes, cause now, after such a hard time, we reconcilled. i've showed my white flag! i can't do much now. it's just a matter of belief. i can't be assured that it won't happened but i'm pinning much hope that it really won't. let me bury those 'me' deep down. and since i've chose this path, i can't look back. i've sacrifised enough..

chiiaos.

2007-09-13T01:21:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI! I'm blogging for the sake to just keeping me awake. i'll be having my tuitions in a few hours time, i can't fall asleep now you see. Coz it'll take me alot of effort to wake myself up. ok, i realised that exam's jusr 21 more days to go. 21 days! ! ! and i've not studied at all. tomorrow there's social study test and i don't know how to study! just say i'm totally screwed. i'm totally lost at geography! tell me what's development people! please encourage melivia to study people!

well, today's not melivia's day! SCHOOL BOOHS! ! filled with unreasonable 'thing'. it's just angers me alright. Chemistry was alright, doing practical and blahs. had chinese. i totally screw myself during the test. why is it always me who have not enough time to complete the paper?! it's ALWAYS alright. had D&T next. it's forever boring! ! Math was PATHETIC! i regretted wasting my precious time doing that work where he thought i copied from someone. oke! i know i'm not that bright at maths urh! i admit alright. putting effort on this USELESS subject is pointless and disappointing! maybe i just shouldn't! had english and followed by geography! had "ACT" where supposed to be not! yahs... i'm not gonna put in effort lahs! two thumbs down!

i can't believe i spent 3 hours doing math yesterday night and it's just a waste. i shouldn't even bother to do it! i should just copy at school, it's the same! but i've got to thank MR KAWEERATTANAPHON (kwanchai). oke, i hope i spelled it correctly. MR PETER, even though your answer was wrong! and MR DAVIN for helping with my maths. hahax!!

if i were given a choice i wouldn't want to re-do everything that had happened. cause i knew it'll turned out to be the same. this is just what i'm suppose to have, to live and to move one. oke, that's making sense i hope. i mean i wouldn't want to stop at the same stept without taking another stept up. it'll be so boring! the currently me, maybe it's good enough. nothing much to yearn, and nothing much to be bothered with. it's just more easier and lighter. i wouldn't want another burden you see. ~~forever is just rubbish.~~ i mean there's no such things that will lsst forever, we'll gonna have to die one day, food have to expire one day, things gonna spoils one day!

i guess there's a change in plan.. I'm gonna take a nap NOW! hahax!! chiiaos.

2007-09-11T06:21:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI! i've just ended my tuition and now, i'm drinking soya bean milk. with a not so sweet chop! hahax!! i know i'm just uttering rubbish. well, i'm in good mood today. in fact, after my september holiday, i'm always in good mood. cause i've got no burden and i'm pulling down my sox and washing my hands off. i loved tomorrow so much. cause i'm free from tuition, i mean, only for this special week. hahax!!

school was alrights. i mean, it's never better. I'm finally done with my practical work for D&T. lady of luck is by my side today, there's no ACT. physic was no where at interesting. chemistry was horrible, although i learned something, but the class is in chaos. hahax!! SS is even worst. the voice is as per normal, irritating and sharp! math was.... alright. i've gotten my report book and even though there's no underlines. however, i'm not at all pleased. hahax!! recieved my class photo too. i'm a total dimwitt. hahax!!

reached home and had my math tuition. i was doing my homework and i burned my brain cells into ashes. went home and took my bathed and sleep. hahax!! oh god, that's as if i'm in paradise. hahax!! slept for a while and had my another tuition again. this time was science. i just realised, i'm way too back from lesson. hahax!! tuition for the day officialy ended. i'm so dead beat. devil's nowhere in touch. that's like what the hell... urrhhhh! it's so not fun please. i've like wanted to tell him so much things. yups, he's flying soon. there goes another person.

i just can't help but to think. many things we can remember but not much things we can forget. well, i don't mind if those that i remember was a good one. well, you've got to agree. =D and, what i hated most was doing something so stubborn that left a big regret on me. i hated regretting, i really do. but yahs, everyones' answer, the book answers, the experts anwers will just end up the same. it's how life is suppose to be. i agree but sometime, i find just rubbish. regretting something is not part of life. life is suppose to be a growing cycle, to be what maybe sweet, bitter or bittersweet. but regretting is niether of it. it's sour! and if regretting is part of life, than it's really stressing. i'll never can grow and it's sour! i wish thousands and millions of time. saying tons of times, please don't make me do something i'll regret but i did it again. i've wished to give me a chance and rewind time, cause the regret is really stupid and not worth it. yahs, maybe i've to just trust in luck!

when your world is all dark, how i wish i could brighten it with my stars. i may not be a guardian angel. hahax!! but i can help. no matter the distance maybe i could. hahax!! chiiaos.

2007-09-09T01:06:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI! as you can see, melivia's back in action. it's been quite some time ever since i last blogged. the last time was before i went back to indo and now it's after i reached singapore again. i'm still missing back home you see. hahax!! i woke way too early today. my flight is early and like i'm half awake. i met passit(if i spelled it correctly) in the airport. DANG it! i've really throw my face away. i mean, i'm looking like someone from planet nerdy, dimwitt. hahax!! i'm wearing my specs and that's really wierd.

my holiday is good. i mean, there's no tears shed, i can differenciate between rain and tears. laughters were being made. but of cause, devil's and melivia's fight is unpreventable. i wonder if he has some kind of phobia towards people. or maybe, me. urhhhhh! he's having menopause. mood swing? always! but anyways, i still once again wish him a happy birthday. hahax!! even though i've said it long ago. hahax!! he's still a wonderful friend, my shoulder to cry on, my girlfriend, my fighting partner. hahahax!! i love wina girlfriend too. she's missed my me always.

well, let me announced now. i'm back in singapore. i missed cariina and beta girlfriend(s). and yahs, i've not forgotten about it of couse. " the birthday girl " happy birthday huihong girlfriend. wishes do come true alrites. it's just a matter of belief. i've longed to have a shopping spree again. steamboating which was delayed. hahax!! and i missed betharia harini.

of couse, there'll be no forever such things. nothing good will last, in fact, maybe the bad last. tomorrow's school again. i'm gonna have to say hello to homeworks, maybe scolding, tuitions, teachers and freaks. ~~i hate all of it.~~ well, everyone is entittled to their own opinion right? hahax!! i've not done any homework. in fact i don't even know even if there's one. pathetic i know. i'll have to drag myself every morning, and worst! monday blue! why does all the bad things come everything together piled up while good things is always tiny winy! i've to drag my feet and begging for it i guess. ~~schooling?! thumbs down!~~

i'm not having much ' brain killing ' these days. i mean, there's no wrong for people to be 'free'. it's not that every heart had to be attached to someone. there's sometime where heart needed some kind of holiday too. and i'm giving mine and long one. maybe "tweeps" out there just never one to learn this theory. please, there's no harm in being outdated. if in-dated is being tested this way? i might never want to be one. hahahax!! i think there's no wrong in not being hooked. not everyone have to right? it's just simple. like means like. and if you don't, then just chill. hahax!! maybe worst thing worst, getting a shadow to hide behind. hahax!!

holiday's ended. new term is here. new chapter opened. there's no wrong in opening many new chapter i guess. hahax!! i've gotta buck up for EOY! and have my holiday again! chiiaos.

2007-08-30T08:19:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI! tomorrow i'm gonna enjoy my holiday. let's bid farewell to this ~~tormenting~~ place. holiday's just one week melivia. D: i won't make it for school though and like don't think tomorrow's farewell party is really happening. i'm having my personal holiday today! just clap for me everyone. hahax!! i'm just retrieving those days, which i lacked of sleep. it's not a big deal.

mr Lee and mr Fu is not gonna be in bartley and that's saddening. urhhhh! so is like, form teacher is gone chemistry teacher is gone too. wonderful. well, since i won't be able to say this to them. let's just say it here. wonderful if they see this, too bad if they don't :D hahax!!

thank you! for being so patient in teaching us. and it's good that you have a strong heart, coz those who teach our class will have heart attack sooner or later. it's really gone case i know. those rowdyness and chaos. hahax!! but, that's our trade mark you see. extraordinary. being able to tolerate us, it's wonderful. :D happy "early" teacher's day. :D

i stayed at home the whole day. had my tuition(s) and packed my things. i hope i didn't bring too much clothing. chatted with cariina on msn. you've got to keep your fire on, girlfriend. beat yourself and take another stept higher in beating others urh. hahax!! it's pointless to take in some comments. just take it as something motivational. we've got to be selfish in a good way. there's no way we can be humble all the time. :D live your life to the fullest urh. hahax!! no pain no gain! melivia's here supporting urh. hahax!!

i wouldn't want to pin on a single hope. it's worthless and disappointing. yups, like what cariina says. it's difficult to trust. bunch of friends i've got, but someone trustworthy? it does not even reached my last finger. :D chiiaos.

It keeps goin' on and on Long after we're all gone away

2007-08-25T07:14:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI! i've slept too much today. slept at 11 at woke up at 11.30. people, melivia sleep for 12.5 hours please. hahax!! yahs, i love pig but i'm not turning into one. hahax!! woke up and had my breakfast & lunch. kill two bird with one stone isn't it? hahax!! was watching video and prepared to meet beta and aryantie. =D melivia love today's outing.

cabbed to queensway or something. and had image'' gathering or something. yups, i've met tons of of people today. hahax!! smiled, talked, laughed and breathe.. hahax!! alrites, i don't really know how to describe what i'm doing that time. hahax!! took photos and cabbed home again.

yups, i've just come to my sense. i'm just rather childish years and months ago. i mean, i think i've done lots of somehow i found it now, not worth it, and yups, i'm still a kid. urgggg! even though i hated being called one! there's time where i'm just having my OWN fun. hahax!! and there's time i'm being too naive. yups, i've always think that there's nothing melivia can't do! but in fact, i've got lot's of thing not being able to do. i hated REGRET!! i'm not living in a world of my own, but i'm somehow living in a world of just my principle! melivia's own rules and regulation. melivia's own fun and belief. hahax!! i'm used to live in that kind of world please. i'm loving and used to it. =D

don't mistake me, i'm not turning into an angel. cause i'm devil! hahahax!! anyways, reached home and bathed and now i'm writting rubbish. hahax!! was chatting with devil and he's always agreeing with what i say. urggggg!! can't you just console?!?!

MELIVIA: erh, gw kaya anak kcil gak?
DEVIL: lhoe baru tau!
MELIVIA:trus gw gmana?
DEVIL: lhoe kadang nyebelin, cengeng, gak suka kalah!
MELIVIA: gak gitoe parah kl?!?!
DEVIL: hahax!! terserah lhoe percaya kagak!
(skipping some conversation**)
MELIVIA: trus gw salah kagak?
DEVIL:engak! you're living in a wierd world! wierd tp bagus. ngerti gak!
MELIVIA: nyebelin! tp trima ksih! =D

i've got to be grateful but not consoled. urggg, somehow is alrites. hahax!! roger federer won his fifth tittle in wimbledon people. hahax!! 50 victories o! hahax!! chiiaos people.

roger federer's victory! hahax!!

today's outing. =D

2007-08-23T06:35:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI! finally, the common test is officially over. so long memorising and so long stress! hahax!! alrites, i'm kind of pleased with my results. well, at least i passed everything maybe except for d&t which i knew is totally hopeless. so i'm taking some days off! hahax!! alrites, i've scored 24/40 for english. i've done real bad for english people! it's been deproving and deproving. buck up melivia! 23/35 for math. seriously, i'm not satisfied. 56.5/85 for chinese. yups, i'm pleased. well, it's like finally i passed! 23/40 for physics. yups, i've done badly this time round. hahax!! 38/50 for chemistry. i've dropped! bucking up!! =D 20/30 for social study! congrats me please. hahax!! 18.3/30 for geography. i don't know, it's the first time i passed! hahax!!

farewell common test, halloes end of year examination! i've got to start studying from today. hahax!! urhhhhh! believe me, i'll be a 'planet from nowhere girl' soon! today's school had nothing particular to talk about. just the same old routine and i'm getting bored. was trying to memorise for D&T and thank to TANG HUIHONG! hahax!! i remembered vitamin A is carrot and papaya only. hahax!! maybe i'm somehow fated to be an F&N students. hahax!! went home with girlfriends. =D

yups. i've got nomore english tuition. hohos. i'm niether happy nor sad. i mean please. who won't want to have no tuition but, on the other hand, who won't want to do well for english. hahax!! let's just drop that topic. i slacked at home the whole day doing nothing. hahax!! chatted on phone like again! hahax!! it's been a long time since i chatted with wina. hahax!! she never fails to make me laugh my ass off! hahax!! i love my girlfriend. =D

let's find another one. hahax!! yups, chatted with bella and everything made sense. muka gw tipis cyang!! hahax!! gak kaya lhoe tebal bngt! hohos. yahs, carii yang baru apa salahnya tohs. jd jojoba jg gak apa2. hahax!! lhoe ama "RC" lhoe juga kampatte toh. hahax!! gw kapan yahs.. dapet yang kedua. susahnya.... arggggg! hahax!! mudah2han cepat! amin. hahahax!! let's drop the subject again.

tomorrow's school again. urhhhhh! i'm really looking forward for saturday's arrival. hahax!! beta knows and i knows. =D there's social study and geography tomorrow. please, i'm really gonna dozzed off sooner or later please. it's like the MOST boring subject. mans, just quickened my study life. hahax!! my stomach is really going against me.. ~~fcuked!~~ chiiaos.

&& Try to remember when life was tender

2007-08-21T05:17:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI! did my normal routine and again, i arrived early to school. don't be surprised please. hahax!! melivia's changing as you can see. hahax!! school's never better. lessons were pathetic and worst! my maths is even more pathetic! I've like dropped i think. and it's not like i don't know how to do! but all thanks to the careless mistakes. I've scored only 23/35 and it's like only 66%! believe me, I've got calculators to use and yet, i still divide wrongly! how smart am i! hahax!! praise me everybody!

first lesson was d&T. was doing practical again! i've finally completed it. yups, simple and ugly! was like doing note-making with weifand and samantha. hahax!! we're studying please! =D next lesson was physics. i came early! someone better get that right please.. i ain't wanna shouting period please.. was revising and I'm dozing off... had reccess! i've took another glimpse.. =D chemistry, didn't really listen anyways.. was busy copying homework's. yups, that's melivia style o! hahax! social study and manns, it's really a good sleeping pill. was talking about UN and ASEAN or something.. blahhs.. followed by maths... Mr koh's really getting more and more weird. nahs, out of his mind maybe. he's been shouting and shouting always.. had test and ACT! went home with hwee ling and lydia then..

i'm really needing the time to do a 'garage clearance' for my rooms. it's super messy please. my pigs were all over the place! books and papers too. believe me, it's not a girl's room! hahax!! i'm seriously in need to buy more lollipops.. it's like finishing soon! ! ! i'll die without it please! i'm wondering why is there the need of something like tooth decay and DENTIST! urggggg!! they are in my red book!! i'm so anti of them! hahax!!

please.. I'm really getting from bad to worst isn't it.. hahax!! cariina always said SO!! something really went wrong with my sense of feelings or taste''. hahax!! nahs, can't help it girlfriend. hahax!! but i'm not that obsessed i presume! hahax!! cupid!!!! better be right this time please!!

tomorrow's wednesday! and i really hate tomorrow. arggg! i've got tons of tuition. total of 3 hours of tuition please! my brain cells is gonna rust soon! and i'm gonna go haywire soon! hahax!! tomorrow there's this so called checking of attire. i don't give a damb please. and that stupid celebrity better don't get on my nerves. i think i'll throw him off 4th storey and kicked to africa. hahax!! i know i'm talking rubbish. my nose is going against me today! i'm like have nose bleed! hahax!! melivia missed riding motorbike. hahax!! it's been ages please. =D sleep tites girlfriends. chiiaos.

& i can't tell the difference between rain and tears..

2007-08-20T04:22:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI! yupss... today's test was wonderful. i don't think i'll ace at it this time round. hahax!! but i kind of feel chinese is rather easy. hahax!! melivia's succeed in remembering those words. congratulate me!! and i manage to complete all the question.. hahax!! yupps, i'm proud! woke up as usual.. nahs, maybe late in like 10 minutes. washed and ate my breakfast.. such a boring routine i know. hahax!! went o school and it's like so empty please! it's too early! ! ! hahax!!

school was patheticly boring! no 'area' of attraction! please!!! there goes my monday.... had free period! laughed out loud please. i'm laughing my ass out with cariina. yahs, imagine.. a drama in life. that will be fun isn't it. hahax!! was chatting hell lots of things. went for mother tounge. practically kills my brain cells. followed after math! it's boring! i'm starting to dream tons of things. urgggg! i guess dreams will never come true! had chem and english. which is as usual boring! walked of with the girls and home sweet home. beta's went crazy today! whatever, anything, DUHS!! lols please. she's been repeating those sentence from the the bus stop and till i reached home! hahax!!

believe me i made my own doughnuts today! hahax!! it's the first time and maybe the last! cooking is 100% troublesome! phoned and had my so called downpour! hahax!! ian is unlucky today! hahax!! anyways, we're talking about watergun! hahax!! yups, it's like wtf* i know. i laugh my ass out!! want die together die arh! =D

momo girlfriend! get well soon! hahax!! yahs, i miss her laughter! =D 'christmass' is missing! urggggg! that's really hard to bear please. like, i'm only taking a few glimpse and it really took quite a hard time. there's needed the right time alrites. hahax!! anyways, i miss those heartbeats again. i miss my stepping back and i miss my 'noticing'. overall i miss everything! again! it's another wrong aim my dear cupid! and is like, the victim is only one!

tomorrow's school again! and there's D&T! urrggg! i hate that subject. and i've got tuition too. in addition, there's physics. i hate tuesday! hahax!! no more another dream. chiiaos.

But if you ever lose your way, I'll leave one on for you.

2007-08-18T01:49:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI! it's been ages ever since i've blogged. it's pretty rotten now! hahax!! there's really nothing much happening lately. just the usual routine... urgggg! schools, lectures, homeworks, tests, tuitions. practically killed my brain cells. faint for me please! hahax!! common test are such a pain! i've like have to memorise millions and millions of things.. especially geography!! what a test please! i "enjoyed" memorising it!

i've changed my blogskins and song! 5 thumbs up for this song please! one of my favourites. what a sweet song~ hahax!! it's dedicated to "christmass" . jingle jingle bell! hahax!! i know i'm talking craps please. hahax!! another day is gone. which also means i won't have much time please. urrggggg!! killing me slowly arh! hahax!! okay, i know i'm talking as if my days are numbered or what so ever! but, i'm not! hahax!!

urggg! devil's pissing me off! such an unreasonable, stupid, 'volcano' guy! urrggggg! i'm gonna tear him up into two and throw his head to africa and his body to china please! 100% not cute! how could i've known such an idiot like him!

photo's uploaded! chiiaos.

I woke up short of breath, but I've still got a long day ahead of me

2007-08-10T09:21:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI!! my friday ended real fast. and believe me, i did nothing today. rotting myself at home? urggg!! school's just few days to go! i swear i've forgotten the meaning of school?! i'm just lazy for godness sake. nomore studying please. i'm soon gonna be the girl from " planet nowhere "! imagine, me wearing specs, with piles of book in my hands, glued myself with textbooks. i can't helped myself but not to imagine please!

seriously, my blog is having a problem. faint mans. hahax!! woke up at 11+ and had my breakfast. slacked till the clock strikes 2! i had tuition again! yahs! it's like again? believe me, everyday i'm having a tuition. please faint for me. hahax!! alright, i learn quite a few today. be proud everybody! clock strikes 4 , melivia ended her tuition. had my lunch and glued myself with my laptop. i'm watching this movie for me 5th time i guess. hahax!! phoned with bunch of idiots. hahax!! fainting again! i made a million laughter today! it's a good remedy ok! a laughter a day, keep droplets of tears away?! hahax!! nahs, i didn't really cry these days. it's dried up! hahax!!

LFW happy b'day?! urmmm, if i'm not wrong today's the day. arrgggg! i hope it is. it would be embarassing if it's not. urmmm, i'm not really sure how old you're now! faint please... hahax!! dreams do come true?! well, that's what people says. i'm not sure too either. but i'm praying hard that it's true. hahax!! cause thousands of prayers i've made.. =D sadness just kills.. but the irony is somehow it became a trend?! hahax!!

to my dear cariina sweetheart. cheer up girlfriend. it's just kind of irritating. pointless to take it into heart! hahax!! problems just shoo off from her. =D yeeps? cariina wangkar-lah! hahax!! i'll make some laughter into you. we're out-dated remember?! hahax!! you've got the choice in whether to think about it or not. urgggg! just forget it. hahax!! be touched! cause i'm dedicating it for you!

i'm still thinking.. but i can't hope much, cause time is moving real fast. somehow i know, that i can't make it! there's nothing to update about anyways. i'm just doing it out of boredom. urgggg! shoo off boredom please! it's just killing me slowly. hahax!! chiiaos.

this is the war that's never won!

2007-08-09T06:26:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI!! spent my thursday with beta and cariina! lovely day spent! yahs, we planned to study..but, you know the outcome! we spent most of our time slacking! hahax!! we had our so called heart to heart talk. it's been ages ever since we had one. thanks to the mcspicy! my gastric is now back in action! urhhh! i'm just hating this gastric of mine.

woke up at 9 am! heard that! 9 am! that's like early i know. it's unusual for melivia to wake up at 9 am please! hahax!! it's forever due to one reason! tuition! gosh! tuition is really getting on my nerves. just simply kills my brain cells. hahax!! ended tuition and slacked till 1.30 and went for another round of " killing brain cells! " this time was math tuition. hahax!! ended and went to meet cariina. manns...she really took her time. hahax!! met her in the bus and bussed to kovan! yahs, it's like again??? uhummm!! that's like my studying place?

beta arrived and we ate our dinner. believe me! we ate dinner at 5 pm! hahax!! chatted for like alot of rubbish. cariina keeps complaining. " i'm like so pathetic. during national days and i'm studying? " hahahax!! it's quite true urh. but today's not my national day anyways. mine's like another week to go?! i guess so. hahax!! never mind about it. we did some studying and chatting and studying and chatting all the way! hahax!! wonderful isn't it? =D chatted about the place i never wanted to visit. simple, it's china! please there's no offence but i've got quite a trauma there. i've lost my passport there! and like, it causes me hell alot of trouble.

i wanted to visit england and africa badly! arhhhh! when will the day come. hahax!! and we asked each other what we wanted in our house? i want swimming pool! urgggg! all thanks to my dad who wanted a garage? please! any use? urhhhh! beta wanted a pool there. hahax!! and cariina wanted to have a big tv? maybe she wanted to have a cinema at her house. hahax!! that'll be great isn't it?! having popcorns everyday. wonderful. hahax!! that's our big big dreams! in this small small world! i wanted to have a tennis court too. arggg! many many of " want " ! took ages for me to achieve. hahax!!

beta went home soon after and cariina and i went to look for her parents. thanks for the lift again. hahax!! went home and now's like slacking again. i'm rotting soon! i've not studied yet! really got to buck up! motivation melivia! argggg! it's really needed for me. i don't wanna fail badly this time. i wanna graduate real fast! hahax!! and i'll start my university life then. how looking forward. saying goodbye to the country which i've been staying for the past 7 years i believe. okay, i pressume it's around 7 years. farewell and halloes new environment!

i hate those lies! it's pointless and meaningless anyways. i'm so getting confused of what exactly had happened. seems to be always the angel but i'm just not sure... i just can't read.. it's really secretive.. yahs, like what beta says. mysterious! urggggg! i'm so not getting the point. i find it real waste of time. i didn't do anything. i swore i didn't.

please! the clock is ticking and i've got not much time. well, cariina and beta asked me to chose " that " path. but please, i don't have that much guts! argggg! not much time left. it'll soon be a bye bye and so long! my never reached story. i swore it's different this time. can't be explain.. but i'm feeling it. i swore i do! it's the first time i've experience it.... don't tell me you're playing a joke with me God! cause i ain't wanna walk through another bumpy road. it's really not much time!! i've got to do something...

enough stressed alright. i ain't wanna have white hair growing please. i'm still far too young. let's just think about this... does every story lead to a happy ending? i don't think so.. but fairytales do. if cinderella can have it then why can't us? it's just kind of unfair. if fairytales is supposed to be sweet. then please, if there's no happy ending. don't let us have any false hope. urgggg! getting out of point i know. well, but it's just my point of view. hahax!!

another day spent and i realised time do passed quickly... in just a few blink, it now thursday! and school's gonna start pretty soon. screw me up please. urhhhh! there's many things i've not done. and i never wanna leave any regrets behind. there's still rush hour 3, alone, shopping spree, beach outing! with just 3 days left? it's surely undone! sads arh. i know i've been writting craps. chiiaos.

i cant continue pretending to choose,The opposite sides on which we fall

2007-08-08T07:59:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI!! A wonferful day spent today! can't believe that i spent half of the day slacking at mcdonald. hahax!! it's as though like my house! i didn't went to school today! oh please. first of all i overslept however i would still be able to go school though. second of all, i'm lazy. hahax!! it's like the same for the past few years. everyone had to agree please! yahs, had a wonderful sleep. hahax!! woke up at 10+ had my breakfast! man, i love today's breakfast. ten thumbs up! hahax!!

prepared to go for a movie. beta arrived and cabbed to AMK HUB! hahax!! meet up with dick, shahizan, aaron, trank, charlene and mariam. yahs, we watched the secret. urmm....i've got to agree that jay chow is soo freaking hot. but, i don't really like the story line. i mean, yahs... rather confusing but a happy ending though. hahax!! arggg! but he's hot! hahax!! went for lunch and bussed back to kovan. dick beta and i then went to mcd and slacked.

okay, we had a super tense moment there. dick was like left his house key at SC room. hahax!! telponed here and there. was like kept on calling chao han. hahax!! finally, there's a sigh of relieve! hahax!! waited for chao han to arrive. was like chatting super many things. chao han arrived and we dine there. chatted lots and lots of bartley secondary school! yahs, take note of the bartley secondary school! hahax!! i'm not some kind of devoted person alrites. starting from d&t to the teachers and last but not least. student council!

i've got to admit that my attire is no good. yahs, but please.. i'm starting to lose interest please. and it ain't my fault. yahs, i think everybody know whom i dislike most. " tom cruise "! oh god! i admire you the most arh! the most whom is getting on my nerve..the most whom i wanna throw you down from 100 floor arh. yahs, i've talk alot! and ain't wanna waste my breathe please! around 10.15 bussed home. kept on talking craps with chao han. believe me! i've complaint alot to him! hahax!!

was chatting with beta about finding ways.. hahax!! i laughed my ass out please! what giving letter? hahahax!! i think i would faint before reaching it to the correct hands arh. and by that time, i would hide my face mans. hahax!! faint? dang it, that's like too dramatic please. i don't it would be any use please. i would really faint arh! hahax!! well, i've got to find a way before it's too late isn't it. yahs! if only i've got the courage to stept up! but i'm melivia! so i don't think i had it! arhhhh, it's even harded than solving 1000 mathematics problem or even drawing thousands of graph!

i've got two tuition tomorrow. yahs, i've got buck up in my studies. it's like few more days left. i think i've got to burn midnight oil! i'm gonna buy hundreds packets of coffee! i would like memorise the whole textbook please! wish me luck everybody. hahax!! i've got to find ways to keep my studying mood alive. i wanna graduate soon! it's like killing me to keep on studying please. keep me motivated everyone!

tomorrow most likely i would rott at home studying! argggg! wish me luck arh! holidays isn't like holidays to me! pathetic please! hahax!! i wanna september holiday! back to indonesia i hope so! hahax!! phoned with devil and like i laughed my ass out! hahax!! i think i've been lauging too much today! hahax!! was talking about what we would do if we are lost in an island? who would us bring? man, i would bring him with me! hahax!! he's able to cook for me and find food to keep me surviving. hahax!! my personal maid! hahahax!! i laughed till i fall from my bed arh! hahax!! i would bring yao ming with me too! well, he's able to carry me high if there's any tiger or crocodile who wanted to eat me up! hahax!! he's 2M tall please! hahax!! and, i would spent my time there thinking of how i would get out from there of course. hahax!!

okay! i've been talking alot of rubbish! but seriously! what would you do? hahax!! do you ever realised the existance of me? oh, that's a straight forward answer. urhhhh! idiot! chiiaos.

all the tired memories, fade away and creeps.

2007-08-04T09:48:00.000-07:00

photos taken today and urm.....many days before. i think...hahax!! today's outing photos is at beta's blog too.

2007-08-04T09:12:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI!! a wonderful time i spend with my girlfriend(s). it's seriously been ages since we four went out. think back, i realised how different we are ok. i've wanted to brow up, and now, thinking back, i've grown up! there's really a big changes. but, i'm fortunate to have my girlfriend(s). it's been 9 years! time flew mans. hahax!! finally, how months and months, we have our reunion again!better, there's no interruption! YAYNESS to 4th august 2007!

i swear i slept alot today. i slept at 1am and woke up at 1 pm. hahax!! see, it's a full 12 hours of sleep. my battery is 100% full. hahax!! bathed and prepared to meet bella and beta. bussed to kovan MRT and trained to PS. had our lunch and millions of laughter and craps made. chatted from one end to another. everyone have to agree with me, that it's nice to be rich. if only i am lahs. then, i wouldn't have to study. and all i've got to do is wake up, shopping and sleep. hahax!! wake up melivia! stacy soon arrived. walked to far-east then. okay, i don't know if i spelled it correctly or not. the journey there was LONG! please, i almost broke my legs arh! it's even worst than 2.4 KM run arh. hahax!! i'm sweating like nobody's business. hahax!!

had our shopping spree. walked almost every shop i guess. i saw this sponge bob shirt. but man, it cost me a bomb. ain't worth it everybody says. hahax!! my leg's hurting like nobody's business. went to accompy stacy for her lunch at this thai restaurant. Oh My God! i throw my face there. it's like so embarrasing please. i can't believe i'm that stupid arh. hahax!!

me: can i order lemon chicken and mango salad.
man: ice water for drink?
me:urm......(asking beta.)
man:berapa?
me: tak apa2.

that's like laugh my ass out. my face turn red alrites. hahax!! i think i've got to visit the doctor some other time. hahax!! ate and continued our shopping spree. bought a t-shirt. walked to cathay then. meet bella's friends and took neo-print. it's been ages ever since the four of us took one! i look retarded in every pieces of the picture. today's totally my bad hair day! my fringe look like someone from "planet nowhere please! " definitely not my day for some photo taking. walked back to PS then. bought dounuts of the way. YUMMY! hahax!! i swear i'll gain another 50kg today alrites. " i'll be 150 kg then! " hahax!! trained back to kovan. heart to heart talk with stacy! and i swear it's been a long time ever since we had one. hahax!! she's my loved please!

if it's really the one, than can i please hope that it won't be another rough road? i don't want to fall nor hurt along the way. cause it's a rough road, i might easily fall. and, maybe there's noway to climb again. i can't be sure if it's really the one. i can't be sure that my decision is right.i'm hesitating now. i can't push myself to another rough road. cause i might not climb up again.... i'll just let it be..... my hope is fading, just like what i'm thinking.

chatted with fuwei for like only a few sentence. urggggg. it's always the same. at least he should be grateful that i remembered that his birthday is around the corner. hahax!! yahs, i saw the b* again. it's not something offensive or what. i'm just used to it please. hahax!! monday is like coming soon! why does weekends seems so fast to pass. and school days are like years...... improvement need to be made please. hahax!! i've got to bring back my studying mood. i wannna graduate soon please. sick and tired of schooling! killing my brain cells. i may turned old soon with wrinkles and white hair arh. hahax!! chiiaos.

&& they say when you're young, you've got to learn the hard way.

2007-08-03T05:45:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI! practically today i killed half of my brain cells. well, mostly during geography lesson. getting too stressed up i pressume. hahax!! finally, i announce that Today is Friday! hurray! be happy for me please! hahax!! i'll be able to wake up late! YAY! it's been ages since i had a good night sleep o. will be having outing with my girlfriends too! hahax!! it's been decades ever since the four of us went out together. so looking forward! hahax!! school was never better. it's always the same if you ever noticed. study? homeworks? lecture? scolding? stressed up? tired? never changed for godness sake. hahax!!

i woke up pretty late today. i woke up at 6.30! was rushing here and there. it's my alarm clock's fault again. blame it please! first period was social studies. i walked around the whole bartley secondy school computer lab. hahax!! next period was english. gosh, i'm dozzing off. was doing summary which i hated the most. nice way of torturing! then was PE! i hate that **(s). taking the hight and weight. i'm 100kg heavy please! hahax!! reccess then was geography. i almost screw myself at the test. kills my brain cells. had chinese class. argggg! boring yet there's tons of laughter made. hahax!!was playing with MOMO's cosmetics.

had my tuition and glued myself with my laptop. i'm really out of things to do! was chatting with wina. laugh my ass out please! we are talking rubbish. hahax!! was talking something about who's better and out of nowhere was talking about math! please! math! something should have went wrong in my brain. hahax!!

wina: gw lg pusing nihs!! gila blajar mulu nihs. hebat gak gw?
me: yang bner lhoe! tumben! lg ada angin apa2n nihs. orang males number one blajar.
wina: brengsek lhoe yahs. buktinya gw lg blajar ding. hahax!!
me: 9 x 6.....yang bner lhoe. whoahs. hebat2
wina: 63
me: 7 + 18
wina: 24
me: 8 + 27
wina: 35
me: siapa nanya non! gw lg bkin PR kok lhoe yang jawab... and, why are we doing math?
wina: ............

i don't think it's getting nearer. in fact it never have been near. it's far all along. hahax!! i've finally finished my harry potter and the deathly hallow. be happy for me please! hahax!! holiday please arrive faster? i'm dying please. studying ? getting really tired.

tomorrow saturday! then sunday. then monday then tuesday? SAY NO TO PHYSICS! i'm not done yet please. and there d&T! i'll be in class half and hour early! prepare my tea and red carpet. no complaints i hope! ergggg!! i'm boiling please. hahax!! ergggg! pissed my upside down arh.

i've wrote thousands and millions of rubbish now. hahax!! chiiaos.

The angels said I'd smile today,
Well who needs angels anyway?

2007-08-02T07:20:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI! i'm trying hard to keep my blog alive. it's seems soo dead, lifeless. pathetic isn't it? well, someone have to agree with it. hahax!! okay. melivia's pissed off today! all thanks to someone great! unreasonable and childish! big gaps between of age...real big yet...... grow up! please! let's not get to there yet, school was getting more and more pathetic. killing my brain cells, trust me, it's unhealthy for the heart too. hahax!! actually i wanted to summarise what happened previous and many previous days, however, short term memory in progress. totally forgotten.

woke up as usual. damb that handphone's alarm clock. i'll have heart attack soon if it continue please. okay, it rang right at my ears.. my ear drums gonna burst please. hahax!! okay, i know i'm talking rubbish. i'm just creating some humour. hahax!! ate my breakfast and off to school. first period was chemistry. can't remember what happened. next was chinese, talking about (not sure which country) torturing this pregant lady! please faint everybody, they tied her in a tree and like i think her leg tore off. after chinese was D&T. having test. congrats me, i'm gonna flunk badly this time! reccess, and math! kills many of my brain cells. congrats me. i knew how to find gradient! hahax!! then was english and geography!

had some lecture which really pissed me off. i mean, be reasonable please. i have two legs and not five or seven or ten! you don't expect me to fly or do some magic or something. wAke up please. i think i should wait half an hour before. prepare tea, red carpet and open the door! very grand isn't it? it's better than more complaints or whatever.. i'm trying to be rude or something. but believe me, it's soo getting way out too far. yahs, it's my fault. okay, mine! see, i've give in! how wonderful. be proud everybody.

i'm supposed to be studying for tommorrow's geography you see. hahax!! but nothing went in. i've killed too much of my brain cells. hahax!! nevermind about it. school ended and went home with cariina! toook a nap and went to dentist. always so painful! and the smell, just make wanna puke. cabbed home and had my tuitions. phoned call... been already almost dunnoe how many days. hahax!! chatted with devil, wina. laugh my ass out. hahax!! wina was talking about this stupid incident... they way she imitade how the people talked made me almost drop off from my bed. hahax!!

tomorrow's last day of school for this week. i'm so looking forward. finally, i'll be able to wake up late. and there's this chinese ACT again. i've like don't know what the hell the teacher's talking 'bout. it's too fast please. and, really! very loud and alot of emotion! 100% suitable for acting. hahax!! chiiaos.

&& it's no longer pretendable..

2007-07-28T07:22:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI! i've just changed my blog skins and song. i've also include a tagboard. nahs, i'm just putting for fun. hahax!! it took me 800 and 7 times to find a song! so here, out of random. but, i do like this song somehow. not that emotional kind. melivia's out-dated! today's a moody saturday. even the sky is crying too. it's crying cats and dogs. which include thunder. lucky my heart is strong enough. or, i'll die with heart attack. PS. ( i've got life insuranse anyways. ) hahax!! alright, i'm writting nonsense.

seriosly, i did nothing today. tossing around at my comfortable bed. i planned to cut my hair. but, maybe the sky objected with my idea soo....JEGGEEER! it's started to cry. hahax!! so plan is cancelled. and stayed at home. i'm rotting for godness sake! first thing i do was, on my computer. and, i can't remember of any. hahax!! chatted with ian, wina and i don't know who. we're talking rubbish! there goes melivia's physco-NESS! i kept on laughing my ass out. hahax!!

i'm so homesick now. hahax!! i missed indonesia so hell many please. i miss devil, wina, lent and many arh. most important is, i miss the movie! okay, those indonesian icluding myself! have got to admit that the sinetrons are way being a " photocopy! " but, i still love the movies alright. 100% supporting. viva " sinindo " hahahax!!

pacar pilihan "photocopy" ( love in parris ) tapi ben joshua masih keren2 aja!
candy "photocopy" of (one comic) but, lucky perdana masih oke2 aja.
pangeran pengoda "photocopy" of (devil beside you!) misha i love you!
intan " photocopy" of (Be strong geum soon) tapi dude, kok gw gak bosen2 liat dia!
preman campus " photocopy" of (the outsider)
sumpe gw sayang loe "photocopy" of ( smiling pasta)
too much to write. hahax!! tapi, no harm kali. asal cowoknya ganteng. gw no comment dehs. hahax!!

believe me, we're ian wina me and others were talking about " sinindo " hahax!! as though i'm the minister or something.hahahax!! i'm writting too much rubbish i know. hahax!! tomorrow's sunday? hope i'll be able to get the harry potter book. i'm dying! for it please. hahax!! well, i hope it's a happy ending.

i'm speechless. i guess it's just an empty promises. i'm not such a looney, please! if it's just empty promises. than believe me! i'm not putting too hard on it. gw biasa2 aja kali. i'm carrying on well. with or without! i mean! i'm not anything. yahs, i'm just me. accidentally knew. shared a little laughter and tears. knew for just a year or even less. it's neither beautiful nor sad! i've realised. out of the sudden, we're lossing the communication. so long then. just goodbye.

i hope monday's not gonna arrive soon. time please, would you just stop at saturday. monday blues. and maybe, will be nightmare to me! in addition, i'm gonna need to kill my brain cells again. hahax!! i've gotta starve in tons of vitamin A,B,C,D,E,F,G,H,I,J,K,L,M,N,O,P to my brain. i'll be the second ainstine then! hahax!! melivia the genius?! believe me, i'm joking. hahax!! i'm not from " planet nowhere " ain't not a retard. hahax!! chiiaos.

And through her tears she laughed
It's time to kiss the past goodbye

2007-07-25T06:35:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI! let melivia once again be a regular update R! hahax!! school, as i always says, is nowhere near interesting nor fun. imagine, how dull it is. i think it's time for me to have another tuition! yahs, tuition to how not to get restless at class! i sure do need it alot mans. hahax!! i'm sad! yahs, i'm very sad! hahax!! ~~it's just a game melivia!~~ anyways, today school is like what i've said previously!

woke up and blahs. do all the necessary things. and off to school. ain't it supposed to be raining today?! hahax!! okay, never mind about it. went to canteen as per usual. i'm actually being kind hearted, no! being good! wanting to report. but, as there's some " you know! " not allowing due to some stupid reasons. so why bothers! had maths for the first period. i'm really hating graph! waste my eraser and pencil lead urh. had chinese then, blahs! got back test result. then was urm...ME! was doing this government thing! and i seriously know nothing about singapore government! my bad urh. hahax!! physics, i'm studying for today's lesson. i do crack my brain! then was english, composition again. act! mr rangen was talking about brain?! scolded for nothing?! done duty but still giving lecture?!

was sharing my dreams with cariina today! hahax!! i'm dreaming too much urh. hahax!! i dreamt being a business women? following my mum's footstept. hahax!! had a huge house. covered by white walls and glass! swimming pools?! cars?! huge gym?! wake up melivia! hahax!! am i dreaming something impossible to reach urh! hahahax!! was laughing at myself too. was dreaming with cariina living together. first thing that pops up in my mind! the fridge is filled with lolipops, ice creams, sweet drinks, pizza and etc! hahahax!

went home with jereline and momo. went for my tuition. killing my brain cells again! i think i've got to stuffed myself with alot of vitamins in order to keep my brain cells alive. hahax!! tomorrow's school again. nightmare! i've got to wake up early again you know. hahax!! i'm running out of lolipops. today's not my day too. =( hahahax!! i know i'm writting alot of unecessary things. chiiaos.

And all of a sudden,
our conversations were missing the comunication...

2007-07-24T07:12:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI! life didn't get any better. first of all, school is never interesting. imagine please. in a four sided wall room, dull, study, formulae, homeworks. wonderful isn't it? how stressful it would be. with some unreasonable, changing mood teachers! further more, i can't seem to find my studying mood. and, tuitions is starting to get on my nerve. and seriously! today is not my day! 100% god of luck is not by my side! how pathetic my life could be....

school as per usual was no where near interesting. first period was D&T. drawing our hand. hahax!! my drawing was no where near passing mark. then was physics. i'm starting to hate this subject please. the teacher love to shout! menopause or something. just bid goodbye to physics. then was recces. chemistry. pity the teacher and pity myself. social study! i can't help but to close my eyes! boring subject and boring lesson! next was math. didn't do much did i? hahax!!

went home and rushed to finish up my homeworks. okay, it's a tuition homework which i'll be dead if i've not done it. not school homework urh. hahax!! i'm not from planet " nowhere! " hahax!! chatted at phone. okay, i'm having this stupid conversation with devil again. hahax!! yahs, we fight again! which lasted us 10 minutes. hahax!!

tomorrow's school again. and there's physics and chinese again. urhhhhh! i hate chinese for godness sake. i've learned for the test. yet, i failed. wonderful isn't it. what i've learned is not tested. whereas, what i've not learn is tested. haiyooos. and there's tuition for me again. hahax!! stressed mans. hahax!! till today, i've not bought harry potter and the deathly hallow. okay, i don't know whether i spelled it out correctly. hahax!! chiiaos.

so on purpose so in my face
couldn't see beyond my own place

2007-07-20T02:58:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI! i'm just blogging for the sake of keeping me awake. i'm having my tuition in like another half an hour. i'm soo sleepy! i've not been blogging for the past few days too. hahax!! i don't have that mood to blog you see. hahax!! yahs, schools is forever boring. completely filled with test and homeworks. moreover, i'm completely blinded by books. ok, i'm not from planet nerdy or somewhere. it's not a storybook, urmmm..well maybe a little. arhhhh.. i don't know what i'm saying. it's a book or novel or something arh.

today was a short day at school. i love friday the most. cause tomorrow's saturday! hahahax!! first period was social study. i finally pass my test. thank god mans. hahax!! next was english! i have no idea what i do doing this lesson. ~~short term memory in progress!~~ hahax!! then was PE! we had to do 40 push up i think. but to me it's like already 100000 push up! whole body was soo dirty! dang it arh. then was reccess and then geography! what a boring friday!

believe me! i think i drank 1000 littre of water already. hahax!! " high tides " every five minutes. hahax!! ok, went home and slacked. i didn't manage to give myself a time to sleep. coz'' melivia just can't sleep! well, even though i'm sleepy. hahax!! short post for today. ain't have any mood. hahax!! chiiaos.

never cared never wanted
never sought to see what flaunted
so on purpose so in my face
couldn't see beyond my own place

2007-07-17T05:40:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI!! don't be suprise but i'm here, posting craps again. i'm currently lose my mood in blogging these days. well, i've been changing my blog song again and again. from tear drop on my guitar to big girls don't cry to colour blind and now to twinkle twinkle little star. well, this current song is a rather emo version of twinkle twinkle little start! i found it cute though. hahax!!

school was never better. okay, i would be telling a lie if i say i love school so muchhiies. i mean, everybody hate school please. okay, i completely forgotten was happened during the past few days. well, i'm having Short term Memory. hahax!! today was seriously unlucky! ! errgggg!! totally not my day please. i've recieve scolding twice today. maybe another is not so called scolding. but lectures! hahax!!

first period was D&T. was doing practical work. was hammering my "art" piece and out of a sudden. i aimed wrongly and that ~~fcuking!~~ hammer hit at my hand! argggg! it's super painful please. second period was urm....physics i think. mr lim is having some kind of meno-pause or what! it's like the minute i arrived at class he scolded me like nobody's business. idiot mans. was reccess time. no comment! fourth period was chemistry. yahs, as usual, nobody's listening. i'm just doing my own things. fifth period was social study! had our test and i hope i pass you see, i've been scoring badly. sixth period was mathematics. ask even more dunnoe! take me as if i never asked. hahax!! laugh my ass out here.

slacked at the classroom with Gf(s). i love my parther huiying mans. hahax!! okay, we're dancing like some crazy freaks. hahax!! chatted many rubbish and went home with jereline darlinks. had my tuition. argggg! i've already prepared pile of book on my desk and i don't have the motivation to study! worst! even to open it! someone teach me to study please. i've got to have my studying mood! chatted with devil which already been quite some time.

i don't even know what exactly i wanted now. it seems everything is going not the way i wanted it to be. it's very frustrating okay! i'm just living each day without any sense of direction. arggg!! i don't even know what i'm writting. i'm not thinking about the " rice which already turned into porrige" . ( okay, i don't understand this part! ) i just want something intresting. make live more colourful urh. not this dull want.

have i been writting too much? hahahax!! i'm just trying to lengthen my post. hahax!! so that it will last longer days?! hahahax!! tomorrow school again! millions of test going on. pile and pile of homework and argggg!! ~~teachers!!~~ (again!!)
i wish i can just stop the clock and say bye bye lahs. hahax!! chiiaos.

A glance into the future
Revealing the secrets she kept

2007-07-08T07:44:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI! the day had finally arrived and tomorrow's student council investiture. and believe me, i've got to wake up early tomorrow. very early! i've got to wake up at 5.30 am! and have to reach school at 6.45! i'm crying for godness sake. there goes my sleep. monday blues!

dropping the topic. i'm still young. ain't wanna complaint too much. hahax!! today i'm supposed to go out with beta and bella. but it's cancelled. postponing to next week i guess. hahax!! went out with my family to suntec city. two-thumbs up for die hard 4 it's the first time i'm intrested in action movies. bruce willis is never too old for me. he's still hot. till today, i've not watched the transformer yet. and i'm looking forward to harry potter! busy weekends again! hahax!!

tomorrow's school again. which also means tuition, study, teachers, homeworks and blahs blahs blahs. ~~so badly need new study environment!~~ kind off bored now urh. imagine everyday going to the same old building. same old person. same old lectures. i lie if i say i'm not bored! and not only that, it's getting tiring! what if we're able to enter a story book? hahahax!! then life's perfect. i would definitely choose to enter a comic book or fairytale kinds. which is equivelant to..TADAS~ " happy ending " and life's definitely intresting. hahax!!
~~i know! stop dreaming!~~

short post today! ain't got nothing to write. boohohos. chiiaos.

She slammed the door with no goodbye
And knew that it was time

2007-07-07T07:42:00.000-07:00

Feelin' blue, while I'm trying to forget the feeling that I miss you
Feelin' green, when the jealousy swells and it won't go away in dreams

Feelin' yellow, I'm confused inside
A little hazy but mellow when I feel your eyes on me

Feelin' fine! Sublime!
When that smile of yours creeps into my mind

Oh oh

Nobody told me you'd feel so good
Nobody told me you'd be so beautiful
Nobody warned me about your smile
You're the light, you're the light
When I close my eyes
I'm colour blind

You make me colour blind

Feelin' red, when you spend all your time with your friends and not me instead
Feelin' black, when I think about all the things that I feel I lack

Feelin' jaded, when it's not gone right
All the colours have faded, then I feel your eyes on me

Feelin' fine! Sublime!
When that smile of yours creeps into my mind

Mm mm

Nobody told me you'd feel so good
Nobody told me you'd be so beautiful
Nobody warned me about your smile
You're the light, you're the light
When I close my eyes
I'm colour blind

You make me colour blind

Blinded by the light you shine, the colours fade completely
Blinded by you every time, ~~I feel your smile defeat me~~

I'm colour blind
I just can't deny this feeling

Nobody told me you'd feel so good
Nobody told me you'd be so beautiful
Nobody warned me about your smile
You're the light, you're the light
When I close my eyes
I'm colour blind

Nobody told me you'd feel so good
Nobody told me you'd be so beautiful
Nobody warned me about your smile
You're the light, you're the light
When I close my eyes
I'm colour blind

You make me colour blind

I'm colour blind

just changed my blog song. it's kind of old you know! but it's nice o. sweet lyrics and song! hahax!! today i did slept alot urh. hahax!! went for investiture practice. arhhhhh! it's forever tiring! went for lunch with beta! it's been ages since i went there. hahax!! went home and had a bath. slept till urm...3 to 6.30. hahahax!! continued with my movie then.

Half asleep never wide awake
I'm on complete overload

2007-07-06T07:58:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI! have i been missing in action for already a few days? well, i've lost my mood in blogging. i'm currently filled with movies and movies!! frankly speaking, it's like already been my third time watching it. i never seems to get bored! well, thanks to this movie or should i say anime called " fushigi yuugi! "

i know it's kinda an old movie. but my tears just won't stop flowing whenever i watched this movie. the characters are all so hot. even the bad guys! well, a forbidden love or something. a real 'world' human inloved with a character in a book. wasn't it sweet? and they almost sacrifised everything just for them to be together. but nahs, i'm not really 'into' them. i'm more into the young handsome emperor hotohori. ~~fcuk the author!~~ cause he died! with last the last word saying i love you! and be happy! my eyes were already in tears.

anyways, i better be off talking about the movies. to be continued.. all thanks to tomorrow's investiture practice. there goes my weekends! argggg!! i'm moodless talking about it anyways. what, lectures and lectures again. pheww~ i think i'm already so used to it! well, my brain is gonna burst if i don't get used to it.

back to today, i didn't go to school. this time, is with my parents' consent. hahax!! but still, there's no big difference! i still have to wake up early! i woke up at 8.00am for godness sake. and, what piss me off was! i had a wonderful dreams! well, prepared everything and went to the US ambesy or something like that! i needed to extend my visa in order to visit that country! so, been long time since i said this! viva america! i love new york! lets go! hahax!! had our interview. okay, the atmosphere that time was rather tense. some get rejected and some was asked 801 questions. i'm having butterflies in my stomach but! my interview lasted less than 5 minutes! well done!

went home and headed for tuition. graph kills my brain cells! it took me two hours! to do two questions regarding that particular subject. what the hell, can there be anyone more dim-witt that i am? i just hate that topic! i still remember i had to stay back to brush up that subject. okay, that's sec two! and believe me! i never pass any test regarding that topic! highest was 2/10 wonderful isn't it. hahax!!

i wanna go for a swim or something. have not seen stacy yet! wondering if i'm the one who's busy or is it her. hahax!! how rediculous isn't it. stayed soo near! yet, we have not met! hahax!! ~~okay, i should say only once!~~ hahax!! devil is nowhere to be found too. didn't really contacted him. hahax!! and school is getting boring? what's happening urh. life just getting more and more dull. had this stupid talk with wina.

melivia: don't waste paper please. you know one paper need how many trees? trees too can cry arh! hmmmm!
wina: there goes our environmental officer! officer melivia! her and her 'always the same' lecture!
melivia: environmental officer? nahs, i hate geography. albert melivia ainstine sounds better! i'm his successor ok!
wina: ........... whatever arh. i wonder when he's alive again and heard this. i think he would choose to be dead again!
melivia: oiiiii!! and, did you lift that from somewhere?! hmmmmm!
wina: .....................

i laughed my ass out please. albert ainstine would be proud to have me as his successor. hahax!! he do alrites. cause i'm melivia! hahax!! okay! i know thats not funny! enough of craps anyways. chiiaos.

maybe its obsession but,
well this is my confession!

2007-07-02T06:40:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI!! had a wonderful time with the girls today. kind of a last minute decision, decided to meet up with bella and beta darlinks. DANG IT!! i swore that it's been ages since i met bella! i miss her real much. hahax!! meet up at around 3. sad case, stacy is unable to come. hahax!! there goes again! our reunion. hahax!! meet up at kovan mrt and trained to vivo city!

chatted alot at the mrt! and we sure do took numerous of photos back then. hahax!! well, as you can see! the photos has already been uploaded! we laughed out loud! took our heels to sushitei! the service was real bad! argggg!! pissed me off. hahax!! was really bloated then. next, we do our window shopping. it's saddening alrites. ~~wish i brought more money!~~ hoohohos. sad case mans. there's this clothes at mango i really wanna buy. it's really beautiful.

trained back to kovan again. saw stacy there with her dad. hahax!! accompanied bella and we bid farewell. hahax!! beta and i went to meet up with cariina and huihong girlfriend(s). yeahs! it reminded me that, school is back in action again! and tomorrow, there's D&T?? ~~fcuk mans.~~ i really hate that subject these days. and what, there's two ACT tomorrow? damb it. now, is the best time to wish for doraemon! sad sad sad mans. hahax!!

chatted alot with the girls than. and beta really laugh my ass out. she's been doing so many crazy action. hahahax!! can't believe it. that i ate again. arggggg! i'm gonna gain 1000kg please! hahax!! went home at around 8.30 pm. ~~fcuk!~~ tomorrow is schoool again! i just wanna my holiday again! you know the homeworks just killd my brain cell. and does that means i'm getting more stupid. bohohos. there goes my 2nd albert ainstine. maybe i'll no longer be a genius. ~~but an idiot! dummy! dim-witt!~~

enough of writting rubbish then. goodnight fellow readers! hahax!! chiiaos.

wish I could define,
All the thoughts that cross my mind,
They seem to big for me to choose,
I don't know which ones to lose.

2007-07-02T06:17:00.000-07:00

2007-06-29T08:10:00.001-07:00

HOI HOI!! today's school was never better. i've got another punishment again! wonderful! i've got to copy alot of pages for not bringing social study textbook! argggg!! i'm really getting less interested towards that particular subject. well, the irony is, it was once my favourite subject! laugh out loud mans. hahax!! nahs, today woke up at 6 and do my normal routine. my dad send me to school. and! finally, i'm having holidays from walking to school!

first period was social study! i'm getting sick and tired of that subject. i can't find any reasons to say i love this subject! there goes my holidays anyways. next was, english. mr rangen never come. and finally! hahax!! just that doing this comprehansion which i have no idea what it was telling.

SUMMARY OF THE PASSAGE!!
there's this wanting to die monk. his desciple was around him waiting for his death i guess. and two dim-witt i don't know was doing what. many people came to, pay a respect? or wanting one last blessing from him? nahs, i've got no idea. next, he was mumbling something and! he's dead! WOW!! what a short summary it is.

back to topic. third period was PE!! and they are re-doing the napha test. hahax!! i unbelieveable passed with a silver! that was a WOW!! hahax!! anyways. did nothing during the lesson. was just cheering for them. after my warm up with hui ying partner. hahax!! okay! mr chin was cute. with that peace sign! hahax!! BUI! BUI! BUI! BUI! BUI! peace! hahax!! that's my trademark. hahax!! there was this indonesian power! and hell yeahs, i'm proud of my beloved country! was reccess! rest in peace that dragonfly! hahax!! well, to me it's seems dead. anyways, i hate my nose! well, yesterday! i chocked due to justin gan and it went to my nose. it's rice ok!! then today! the bloody mineral water went to my nose again! congratulation! last period was geography! funny to admit! i'm kind of liking this subject!

today! my teeth is fcking painful! for godness sake! one months please come soon! the pain was unbearable! imagine! as though someone take a hammer and hammer your precious teeth! ouch isn't it? well, yeahs! that's the feeling. ~~fcking rubber!~~ went home, took a rest and i only took a nap for 15 minutes please. i'm so dead tired. went for my english tuition! today's lesson was great! both teacher and student were sleepy! cool isn't it. hahax!! went home. slacked for a while. chatted with devil for just like few minutes. and off again! for chinese tuition! wow!! i'm so getting to be a nerd! hahax!!

finished tuition and off to parkway parade with my dad and brother. ate this ramen and hahax!! i bought my watch! well, i didn't really eyed this watch but seems cool to me. even if it's red in colour. and it's puma! hahax!! tomorrow, i'll be having this investiture practice. bloody hell! hahax!! celebrity again? ~~fcuk!~~ that action for nothing person! argggg! wonderful mans. i wanted to buy this everlast punching bag! it's cool ok. maybe i'm gonna hang it on my room! hahax!! well, i already had one at indonesia. it's a doraemon picture. kind off childish i know! hahax!!

hahax!! i'm thinking about all the rubbish joke we made during our primary school time. arhhhh!! that's bloody embarassinng! hahax!! i can't even believe it's me mans. bohoohos.

Knock Knock!
Who's there?
Woo.
Woo, who?
Don't get so excited, it's just a joke.

see that! OMFG!! i'm soo lame last time. i can't believe we said these kind of jokes last time. hahax!! i'm so dead boring please. okay this is a stupid joke.

An Irish daughter had not been home for over five years. Upon her return, her father cursed her.

Where have ye been all this time? Why did ye not write to us, not even a line? Why didn't ye call? Can ye not understand what ye put yer old mum thru?

The girl, crying, replied, "Sniff, sniff... Dad... I became a prostitute..."

"Ye what!!? Out of here, ye shameless harlot! Sinner! You're a disgrace to this family."

"OK, Dad -- as ye wish. I just came back to give mum this luxurious fur coat, title deed to a ten bedroom mansion plus a savings certificate for $5 million."

"For me little brother, this gold Rolex and for ye daddy, the sparkling new Mercedes limited edition convertible that's parked outside plus a membership to the country club... (takes a breath)... and an invitation for ye all to spend New Years' Eve on board my new yacht in the Riviera, and..."

"Now what was it ye said ye had become?" says dad.

Girl, crying again, "Sniff, sniff....a prostitute dad! Sniff, sniff.

"Oh! Be Jesus! Ye scared me half to death, girl! I thought ye said a ~~Protestant.~~ (no harm!) Come here and give yer old man a hug."

long post i've written. and majority that i've written is rubbish! hahax!! chiiaos.

Forever insisting on these fragile thoughts of mine,
these deserving fortunes lavashed on these insecurities in my mind

2007-06-28T04:58:00.000-07:00

HOi HOI!! today school was just "okay". well, it's seldom when school became very exciting and fun. hahax!! woke up as usual at 6. i had such a wierd dream! i dreamt of i someone i have no idea is who. and it's as though in B ollywood!! it's just a wierd dream i had. i guess it's because i said so much of the celebrity yesterday. the "tom cruise and kathy holmes". arhhhh!! my mood always swing whenever that rubbish appeared on my "clean" brain. hahax!! went to school as usual then.

first period! Chemistry! boring. it's wierd that early in the morning i'm already starting to get sleepy! second period was chinese. argggg!! as per usual. i'm dozzing off sooner or later. third period was D&T pissed me off!! argggg!! what's the problem of girls sitting together?! making noise urh? arhhhhh!! and so we had to be sitted at the corner. ~~fcuk mans!~~ RECCESS! did nothing. Maths okay, mr koh gave us the wrong pop quiz paper. our homeworks was suppose to be the pop quiz. hahax!! english! talking about the NKF!! hohos. corruption and blahs blahs. money do make the world go round! geography! i love today lesson. hahax!! was suppose to imagine us at a coast. nahs. i don't really know how to imagine at that point of time. i'm just thirsty!! so, all i can imagine was i'm at a coast drinking coconut!

skipped the investiture thingy! argggg!! i've got to go to dentist alrites. nahs, it's up to you" to believe it or not. yeahs? celebrity too urh. i detest going to the dentist! okay, it's since young okay. i remembered i kick the dentist when i was young at indonesia. she's plucking my precious tooth out! ergggg!! hahax!! kicking her?! it feels awesome! dentist was my greatest enemy last time and now and in the future! okay! the dentist checked my tooth blahs. blahs. it's obviously painful! now! i had to wear some kind of rubber on my tooth?! ~~fcuk!!~~ i'll be totally an idiot!! real idiot!! my tooth hurts like hell now!! i don't know what she changes!! erggggg!! lolipops is still my best friend!

reached home and my dad has already arrived from indonesia. hahax!! he's like just here to attend some ceremony or something. and then!!! monday went home!! and!! next thursday will be back here again!! arrgggg!! seems he had nothing to do these days. hahax!! went for my tuition then. and there's these " lame " people doing " lame " things. i'm like so unlucky please. finish tuition. called stacy!! and while i'm talking!! there's this mad dog running like nobody business! arrgggg!! i don't really dislike dogs except this one. it's mad!! argggg!! so i too ran like nobody business to my house. ~~there goes my day!!~~

if it was for good then it's just better to remain hidden. well, what am i looking forward to then? for a happy ending or waiting till everything become real.
good things comes only once in a while, but why does bad things come so easily? just tell if i do make sense!! hahax!! i know i'm writting nonsense. useless and disappointing? 100% true. yay!! bui! bui! bui! bui! bui! hahax!! i would choose to be the convicted than be the victim. anyways. it seems a thousand of miles to go...

school is just getting boring. nahs. tuition almost kills me!! how wonderful. argggg!! i need some outings with my girlfriend(s)!! and yahs. i wanna drink coconut too!! booohs. i've been dreaming about it since years ago!! i wanna invent something like doraemon's magic pocket!! hahax!! well, i'm the second albert ainstine equivelant to. i'm a genius!! yay!! hahax!! what's now out there in the big world? i wanna know. seems that i'm now only living in a world of my own. hahax!! my own fantasy. with flying pigs and lolipops. superheroes save the worlds. doraemon's magic pocket. coconut to drinks everywhere i go. and me!! proving to the world on my own. that all my " theory " is right! scientifically proven by me!! hahax!!

i know i'm talking another language. hahax!! blahs. blahs. blahs. hahax!! i'm just out of boredom writting such a long post now. hahax!! chiiaos.

&& when everything is going fine, all you can do is wait for it to fall apart..

2007-06-27T07:14:00.000-07:00

just an upload of photos. hahax!! ~~yesh! idiot looking of me!~~ well, no harm being an idiot for once. hahax!! Recent & Past Photos With My Girlfriend(s) chiiaos.

2007-06-27T00:58:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI!! so here again! stacy is offially back in singapore. man, i miss here lots. hahax!! well, she's my girlfriend! my women! my happiness tree! like been already one month ever since i met her. hahax!! in addition to that! girlfriend, i love the chocolates. hahax!! well, even though it might ruin my diet. hahax!! okay! i know i'm talking craps. hahax!! school is never better! just as pathetic as boring as irritating as ever.

today school was just ~~nothing!~~ i mean there's nothing to be excited about or to be happy about. see, just as pathetic as i said earlier. and what worsen the day was that " hollywood actor! " yahs. yahs. how popular and " pleasant looking " you are. just get off my sight please. being such a pain on my ass! very irritating! talking about respect? i do. to the others(well, some others!) just not you please. ain't worth it. ~~fcuk urh!~~ showing attitude to you? i think that's really needed and worth it. yahs. yahs. BSS Tom cruise and KAthy holmes. WOW!!! wonderful! hahax!! it think starting from today! i can no longer marvel tom cruise. hahax! anyways. shan't go on any further. and i won't misused the power or so-called being older! simply waste of time!

back to school. after doing duty which was just completeky waste of time. i mean. putting SEVEN people at the gate there. thanks to don't know who. just! well done! i'm just standing there doing nothing looking at two juniors doing the rest. hahax!! waste of time! FIRST PERIOD was maths. did a pop quiz again?! hahax!! no comments regarding it. NEXT, was chinese. i'm dozzing off sooner or later. THIRD PERIOD was civic moral. okay! kind of intresting talking about how then cane a person? it's really OUCH!! the skin tore and blood and flesh was seen! ~~disgusting!~~ the teacher looked like dominic! ~~bad memories!~~ hahax!!

reccess and then was PHYSIC! hahax!! i love the teacher mans. he was really cute! FIFTH PERIOD was english. yahs. i'm dozzing off. pissed me off again! not collecting workbook! OR even bother about it! ~~fcuk lahx!~~ put in much effort on it and now! completely went into a waste. wonderful! had break and english again! THIS TIME! one hour of talking section. nahs, should i say nagging and feed back section. about homeworks?? yahs. i love homeworks. really! without homeworks i just " can't live " hahax!!

i just can't hope much nor am i gonna think out of point. i ain't wanna hope for something that would end up be a disappointment. ~~just sick & tired of the outcome!~~ so why can't i just leave everything behind? hahax!! only idiots will think like that! cause it ain't easy! hahax!! can it be true? could i be wrong? that somewhere in my past. i fell for you! i know not what i do!

i'm looking forward to july i guess. NO!! maybe more to DECEMBER!! i want my christmass! hahax!! christmass tree and all sorts of things. wishes? with every word and every breath i'm praying. that's what i'm saying! hahax!! arggg!! investiture is like coming and i don't feel excited nor looking forward. chiiaos.

you'll deny the truth - believe a lie
there'll be times that you'll believe you can really fly
but your lonely nights - have just begun

2007-06-25T04:08:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI! okay! i officiallya announce that the school had started again. what a ~~wonderful~~ mans. let's start by yesterday. i can't sleep at all. turned off my lights at 11.30 pm but still! i keep tossing around till like 2.30+ wonderful mans. and i woke up at 6 the very next day. argggg!! i'm gonna be a panda soon. well, i don't really favourite panda! seems that pig is much more cuter! argggg!! anyways. today! i'm totally pissed off please.

heavily woke up and get out of my bed. went to meet beta and walked to school. did our normal routine and blahs. the BORING assembly started. but, i did paid attention okay. though the talked seems lasted for 20 hours. my butt is like burning and i'm dozzing off sooner or later. 3N2 changed class! we went to 3E2! and believe me. that class is stuffy! and and...argggg!! can't explain it by words. i just wanted the old classroom back! well, even though the advantage is it's near to the water cooler! but!!! i still prefer being near to the toilets. boohohos. ~~wonderful start of term 3!~~

start of lesson and changes in time table. the first lesson of today was chinese. no comments about it. next was math. okay! it's getting boring. but sad thing! mr chua is no longer teaching me! it was mr khoo or something. bohohos. then was reccess and chem. forever my handsome teacher. hahax!! then was english. okay. this is the part i hated the most. i have to stay back tomorrow and the day after tomorrow till 6pm at school! how wonderful it is right? well, congratulation melivia. okay! composition and summary and newspaper article not done. hahahax!! i know i'm good. blahs. it pissed me off when the workbook homework was forgotten. i mean. i put the most effort on the workbook alrites. arrgggg!! forget it. so be it. tomolow staying back till 6pm. hmmmmm!! wonderful.

homework yet to be done. and now, i'm still lying on my bed doing nothing. hahax!! i just can't get rid of my holiday mood!! hahax!! went home after school with jeanette and jereline. hahax!! MOMO!! thank you for the present! okay! that's a big one. very big. hahax!! tomorrow's school again. and there's D&T!! okay! i don't even know what's the homework. hahax!! chatted with devil. arhhhh. he's always a good listening ears. hahax!!

i wanna have my holidays again. bohohos. maybe working life is better yeahs. hahax!! watched movies, hang out. and blahs blahs blahs. hahax!! i wanna visit a theme park! something like disneyland. argggg!! then i can shout out loud. imagine siting on a roller coaster how many feets high!! and!! argggggg!! shout out loud. hahahax!! okay! ~~i'm thinking too much!~~ chiiaos.

Its history repeating
just when i thought it was over..

2007-06-23T08:06:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI!! yahs. i know i'm such a regular poster. well, i mean there's no harm being one. just for the sake to keep my blog alive. hahax!! anyways. let's just jump to the topic of TODAY!! hahahax!! it's now 11.06 and i just reached home and had my bath.okay!! let me announced that i'm very very happy! firstly, i had a great time today with my gf(s) cariina and beta. well, we did study okay! hahax!!

around 5.30 prepared myself and went to beta's house. it's been ages since i went there. chatted there and soon after, went to meet cariina. took our heels to mcdonald then. it's almost everyday i went there! hahax!! saw xiwei and chuan ho there. hahax!! it's been a long time since i met them. okay, they're working there. ate there but lost our appetite don't know due to what. hahax!! saw momo and weifang too! whoahs. we do saw alot of people there. ate there and went for a walk to heartland.

Okay!! this is the second thing that made me real happy and it's so out of a sudden please. very unexpected! hahax!! mr lu fuwei smsed me after like soo many months. okay! i'm sorry for giving you such a temper! but it's partly your fault too!! hmmmm!! been like soo many months since you contacted me okay. even! my birthday is being forgotten! hmmmm!! okay! but you're forgiven. since you've the heart to smsed me today. hahahax!! i'm happy ok! well, i guess you're doing fine there. looking forward till the day you come back ok! good luck on your exams anyways. hahahax!! okay! i guess my birthday wish did come true. my third wish was you sms or call me on my birthday for a greeting. but it did come true. even it was late. hahax!!

okay! back to topic. went to buy some nail polish and went over to beta house. hahax!! did our nails there and i know i'm the dumb want. hahahax!! watched jay chow's concert on television! he's a real hunk ok! well, can't describe it! but! 100% handsome! hahax!! had a great time there. was laughing out loud! hahax!! around 10.30 carina's parent came over and gave me a fetch home. thank you!! was having a great day with them. muackx!! <33 hahax!!

wrote tons of things today. i'm not complaining today. hahax!! currently on a happy mood. and not emoing anyways. hahax!! cause i'm happy! chiiaos.

" i'm hanging by a moment, here without you! "

2007-06-22T08:16:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI!! okay! betharia harini is officially back in singapore. hahax!! i miss her hell lots. and yeahs. finally we met again. okay. my tears is gonna trickled down soon. hahax!! enough. i'm too dramatic i know. i'm a drama queen, yesh. i admit. hahax!! okay! back to topic. i woke up at 10 and rushed with my tuition homeworks. well, i made it on time. ~~melivia gitu lhoe!~~ hahax!!

blahs. blahs. had my tuition which was seriously a laugh out loud. hahax!! i'm practising my oral and...we became out of point. okay! the topic was shyness. urm..am i shy? hahax!! was having the ' conversation practice ' and suddenly we became talking about willy wonka which equivelant to ~~melivia wangkar.~~ hahahax!! it's not funny i know. i'm just creating some humour here. hahax!! but seriously, i don't mind opening a chocolate factory. hahax!! i can't make as much lolipops and ate it too!! yay!!! i love lolipops. shhhh~ i'm fifteen i know.

after tuition. slacked at home and at 8.30 went to meet beta cewek! hahax!! it's been ages since i met her. we went to have our dinner at pizza hut. chatted real much there. finally, i had my laugh out loud section! was talking about the sinetron at indonesia. okay!! gw miss intan buangett!! dude yang cakep. hohohos.was talking from sinetron candy to cinderella and to mawar. hahax!! gw jadi pengen balik indo skul nihs. okay! went to talked more and more and more rubbish. hahax!! cewek! we are link to link! hahahax!!

OH MY!! talking about school. it's just two more days to go. ~~my mood is still holiday mood!~~ imagine this. waking up early in the morning. heavily, walked to the toilet and prepare. walked to the school. saw mr lawrence. went to the gate! so on and so on!! totally NIGHTMARE!! arggg!! furthermore, homeworks is yet to be done. and! name-tag is yet to be found. in addition to that! on monday! we'll be having a very long assembly. and there's PE! and! and! arggg!! my brain cells is gonna explode.

have i been complaining from just now? hahax!! chiiaos.

There's a look in your eyes,
I've seen before It's all too familiar
but I can't be sure.

2007-06-21T06:32:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI! i'm just updating today's outing with ryan yeow horny! ok! it's been decades since i went out with him. anyway! what kind of brother is that mans. hahax!! let me congrats myself firstly! beta cewek! is coming back tomolow! i'm having a count down for cewek to arrive! hahax!! okay. back to topic. at first decided to go bishan for a movie but, the time was kind of late so decided to go to PS!! arggg!! it's another broken promise. hahax!! at first decided to MIA from there. hahax!!

okay!! we watched the fantastic four again!! i'm so inlove with the human torch! he's like hot!! very hot. hahax!! seems that i can't get bored of that show. hahax!! yahs!! before the show!! we went to arcade!! hahax!! well, played street fighting and x-men! bui! bui! bui! bui! bui! bui! yayness!! i won ryan yeow! ok. it's something i'm very proud of ok!! i won him two times ok! hahahax!! guess melivia is born to be a genius! there's nothing i can't do! got to accept that alrites. hahax!! ok! after show. took a stroll and trained to kovan. bought my things and bid farewell. hahax!! ryan yeow? gonna quit * phoff phoff * yay!! good luck erh. hahax!! bui bui bui bui bui!! supports 1003%. hahax!! no * phoff phoff *

i'm stuck at my homeworks. it's alot ok. i'm starting to hate english now. nomatter if it's tuition of school. the homeworks is BOOM!! alot!! arrggg. gonna burn midnight oil i guess. it's now 10 at night. and i haven done even one! well done melivia! hahax!! school school school. i just wanna say goodbye to you. you causes the trouble and you causes the pain. both emotionally and physically. ~~school school. you're such a pain in my ass!~~ hahax!! anyway! be indated melivia!

even i don't know what's inside. should others know? the grudge is there am i right? hahax!! even this ' genius ' don't understand. i'm just talking rubbish. hahahax!! well, ain't have the mood to write even further. chiiaos.

Showed me light in life that I'd never seen before,
Something that my heart and soul had been longing for.

2007-06-20T21:26:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI!! i really need to save some money here. i mean. everytime i went out. the money i brought with me is always so clean. hohohos. yesh. very clean. hahax!! melivia! you need some saving up section! hahax!! okay!! i'm soo hell bored now. cariina huihong GF(s) are all having their camp. and MY beta is still enjoying her days at indonesia. arggg!! i wanna go back indonesia too! those times spent with the bunch of dimwitt!! ~~i'm so looking backward!~~

okay! enough of my rubbish. was chatting with momo yesterday night. hohos. we're talking about committing suicide. i'm not gonna do it don't get me wrong. hahax!! well, there's always some heartbreak felt. hahax!! well, open your window at looked up the sky. if there's star then you're one lucky chap!! hahax!! okay! the stars will shine when all else fade! doctor devil loves star too!! and likewise melivia too!! hahax!! MOMO is someone's star too!! i'm sure. hahax!! anyway! never knocked on ' another world ' door please. unless you're being invited.

okay!! i'm now rotting myself at home. have been oogling at this prison tycoon from yesterday! am i idiot or is it the game is idiot? why can't i play it. i mean it's soo hard!! ~~i'm not stupid! it's the game fault!~~ anyway! like what i always say! there's nothing melivia can't do! hahax!! what a confidence i had! hahax!! well, there's no harm to be confident anyways. hahax!!

arggg!! anyways. the school is gonna start sooN!! okay!! my nightmare is just few days to come. ~~how happy!! i can't wait!~~ and homeworks is still awaiting for me. everything give me nightmare. and!! having PE on the first day of schoool. what a wonderful day!! anyways!! i had made my IC!! YAY!! i'm grown up. hahax!! like in one more years to come. i'll be able to watch the NC 16 shows. okay. that shows i'm grown up! hahahax!! talking about all these rubbish. i agreed with momo! i miss fuwei-wei! MIA for like dunnoe since when. stupid guy!! even forgotten one special day. how great you are. i won't think you're coming back on july like what you promised. booohs.

okay!! enough of rubbish. i'm missing alot alot alot alot of people. beta! fuwei! devil! wina! adit! stacy!! i missed you guys! pathetic me mans. haixz. i wanna be back too!! hahahax!! anyways! i missed my pizza section! shopping section! with ms betharia harini! hahax!! cya! soon! cewek! lhoe balik cepat donk! gmana sih! hahax!! gw rindu mans. hahax!! stacy been gone for long mans. i miss talking to you and had our bitch fit section! hahahax!! okay! i'm looking forward to the present gurl. hahahax!! chiiaos.

&&I know the pain will never go away,
but I can still force a smile and blink the tears away.

2007-06-18T06:29:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI!! okay! i've spent my day studying with my cariina girlfriend. okay! you did not heard it wrong! i'm studying okay. hahax!! well, we are very studious today. yes, i know, suprisingly! hahax!! well, we had our touch up on the english workbook. we sure did alot today! my hands is already numb and the muscle i guess is at it's limit. hahax!! okay, i know i'm exagerating. ( did i spell it right? ) hahax!!

i woke up at 8 today. yesh. i know it's early. oh my...tell me that i'm a good girl today. hahax!! waited for cariina girlfriend and went for our tuition. today's a long want. i'm dozzing off sooner or later. well, my body's aching like nobody's business. hahax!! after tuition, cariina came over to my house. i had my change and went off to her house. well, we ate alot. i mean. alot! hahax!! slacked at her living room watching this ~~wierd~~ movie. but nice though. hahax!! well, i loved the ending. even though it's rediculous. i mean. who will be so stupid to not even know whom they love and whom are they getting married to. exactly dumb isn't it? what a dimwitt!

okay! decided to study then. erm..this time isn't the study time yet. we had a great talked today. i mean catched up alot of things with my girlfriend cariina. beta! i miss you alot! why the hack must you be back that long. i missed your lame joke ! i miss your cheering up section! well, over all is i miss you! hahax!! i really need to have another big shopping section with you girl. hahax!! ain't you touched at all? well, you should. hahax!!okay! either than talking this, we talked more and more and MORE!! hahax!! we are two happy girl! hahax!!

okay! let me admit some things up. well, i admit that i'm happpy! well, sometimes we just get carried away and just can't admit that everything is clear. okay! ~~not everything, i know. just some wierd wierd rubbish inside.~~ but it's natural reaction i guess. nothing bothering about. i'm just saying about myself. what i agree to. guess all these while, i'm just adapting to my surrounding. adapting what's for me i so called " in-dated" and not " out-dated". okay! you know. i love my face alrites. well, today. at girlfriend cariina house. we agreed to it. and I!! accept it. well, running away is just tiring. likewise hating. it's even more heavier.

okay! enough of my so called admit section! well, i'm being frank alrites. nothing wrong about it. hahax!! okay! finally. we had our study section at her dining room. WOW! sounds cool erh. hahax!! we studied real much. like complete the whole chapter one! and it's real many alrites. hahax!! went home around 6 and home sweet home. i love my cariina and i miss my beta! cewek! balik cepat donk. hahax!! phoned devil for the very first time. something to ask anyway! hahax!! well, nnow! i'm here updating. i'm the girl you thought i would never be! and, it's just up to you to decide what i'm. chiiaos.

no more whispering
no more lies
today is the day i say my goodbyes

2007-06-17T09:44:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI!! well, today was defitinely a tiring day. woke up at 12 noon and had my urm..lunch? hahax!! smsed momo and decided to meet up. yeash. we went oveer to bishan to catch a movie. okay! we watched the fantastic four. and man, finally. mission accomplished. i've finally watched it.
the movie was nice. the story-line was even better than the previous want. and it's much more hilarious too. hahax!! that torch man is hot. way too hot! mr fantastic is not too bad. he's charming and cute. hahax!! okay. jesicca alba is wierd in that movie. she's getting more and more like a barbie doll or something. hahax!! i love the silver surf-man. he's hot. well, even though i can't really see his face.

decided to go for a shop after the movie. hahax!! okay i bought two shirt today. and we tooked a neo-print. hahax!! she's forever lovely. then bussed to kovan as momo meeting up her auto to pass something. man, he's long ok!! went over to mcdonald and took a grap. chit chatted there. boohohos. i can feel your anxiety. hahax!! well, decided to go over his house. his house is far! and dark! i'm sweating like hell please. and, please it's so creppy. my hair is all standing okay. walked to the bus stop and home sweet home. great day with you darkinks.

i kind of been thinking for a while. well, anything can just happened you see. something unexpected. so to say. it's already been long. but it just happened in a blink of eyes. and looking now. how sweet and sour it is. and what if, i just choose another way. then i guess everything would have changed. that's life urh? but it's just too bumby and short. that now, i can't keep enough and the taste is still blant. or even..sour.
okay don't understand what i'm talking too. hahax!! just writting some theory down. hahax!! bathed and went to watch tv. indonesia badminton is getting from bad to worst please. i mean only one is now i think good. well, way to go mans. they lose to china i guess. i didn't watched finish anyway. went to do some homeworks. and started chatting. okay i'm forever will be distracted. i think my brain is getting a holiday.

anyways. ryan yeow horny is getting holy! he's going to the church. well, it's nothing funny. it's something good at least. hahax!! i guess it's been also time since i went to the church. DANG!! help me to wake up on time please. hahax!! and today's father's day urh. happy father's day daddy! and....fuwei daddy? arggggH!! ~~forget about him. he's already missing in action.~~
gonna have tuition tomorrow. mans, i'm sooo lazy about it anyways. hahax!! chiiaos.

With them I shall ride, into the black night sky
With them I shall fly, and no more be a thorn in your eye

2007-06-15T05:48:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI!! " when there's life, there's hope! " no, wait a minute. " i've got life but no hope. " yay!! that's slightly better. alirites. shan't waste anymore time. today woke up at 10 or 11 i myself is not sure. had my breakfast and watched the NBA finals.
hip hip yipppeee hurray!! finally, the spurs won against cleveland. the spurs is finally fourth time championship. hahax!! okay, tim duncan you're my man!! oh my god, it tickles me when seeing that lebron james face after losing. arggg!! come on, show your sportmanship o! ok, i gladly announced. tim duncan is now. one of my favourite player! well, tony parker is ain't that bad too. he achieved the MVP!! hahax!! spurs rocks yeah. hahax!! tim duncan is never old for me. i love him! well, lebron congrats to him too. for his urm. 2nd or 3rd child birth? hahax!! anyways! he's good yeahs? hahax!!
ok, back to reality. i had my tuition and went off to meet cariina. as usual, touching up on our ~~never-ending homeworks.~~ well done bartley. boohooos. and on every pieces of assignment. there stated " happy holiday " oh my god, yeahs, i had such a wonderful holidays doing homework. well done. hahax!! never mind about it! as usual i'm late again. reached and ate our dinner. chit chatted and started with our work.
man, today i'm kind of slow o. hahax!! still doing my sosial study. argg, i guess my hair is gonna drop off soon. and my brain cell is dying one by one. and, goodbye melivia! hahahax!! okay, i know i'm talking craps.
well, had a phone call from devil.
devil! : you know wina is hospitalised?
melivia : ahhhh?? what happened erh?
devil! : she had dangue fever.
melivia : what??! soo good. i've long to get that sickness.
devil! : .....crazy fellow. sometimes your mind is out of destination.
melvia:.......idiot you!
okay, that's a really stupid conversation. hahax!! but seriously, i've long wanted it. hahax!! well, wina! get well soon yeahs. hahax!! i wonder if your room is filled with flowers and cards. ooooh~ how envy. and wearing the hospital clothes. nooooo!! that's my dream. hmmmm, i'm gonna ask her to take photo of the clothes. yeahs. i think i should. hahax!!
okay! congratulation!! someone agreed that homeworks are too much!! hohohos.

% melLiviA _ " Set Adrift On Memory Bliss. " says:
hahax!! i've still got other subject. including social study note making. and english again. a compo and exam paper and newspaper article to do erh. ahhahaax!!
Mr Joe( Kaweerattanaphon)says: ความสุขที่แท้จริงคือการตัดขาดจาก รัก โลภ โกรธ หลง says:
woah
Mr Joe( Kaweerattanaphon)says: ความสุขที่แท้จริงคือการตัดขาดจาก รัก โลภ โกรธ หลง says:
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yay!! finnally. hahahax!! anyways. i can never finish the homeworks. punishment at most urh. hahahax!! and oh no!! school gonna start soon. arggg!! i'm wondering what my life would be then. i think my the moment i saw mr lawrence at the coffee shop i would faint mans. " SCHOOL IS HERE!! " that word is like pasted on his face. hahax!!
that's all for my rubbish comments. chiiaos.

" Look at me, I'm a lifetime of memories. "

2007-06-14T09:00:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI!! yahs. i'm back blogging again. hahax!! i kind of missing writting up my thoughts here. hahax!! well, melivia's back!! okay, holidays is a never a holiday. the homeworks were really really too much. do there mixed up the dates? do they think that our holiday is ONE YEAR ?? well please!! it's one month not one year. and the homework is like as if it's one year. kind of rediculous mans.
yahs, i wonder. if our holiday is one year. oh mans. i guess thousands of paper we must do. and workbook to be done. with what newspaper article?? note making?? and many many more i believed. anyways. the homeworks is way too much!!
okay, enough of complaining i guess. hahax!! or least i would be titled the complain queen. dang it!! sounds so aunty urh. hahax!! okay!! sadly to announce. i have recovered from fever for like already 2 days!! finally, today it dropped. well, i can't say that i'm happy. i mean, okay! i thought i had dangue fever alrites. i mean who won't please. it's a days fever and it never dropped. hahax!! well, then i've already imagined i end up in hospital and yeahs, i do look like a princess. where people come and visitting me and being serviced. hahax!! just say i'm thinking too much. hahax!!
okay, back to today's topic. i woke up in the morning. naNA!! don't be suprissed cause melivia is very unexpected. hahahax!! ~~blahs. enough of rubbish.~~ actually i had a tuition. hahax!! after tuition. smsed cariina and decided to meet to touch up with our homeworks. well, at first we decided to put an end to everything once and for all. but, thanks to don't know who who gave soo MUCH homework, mission failed.
i was late again. hahax!! sorry, my bad my bad. hahax!! ate our lunch and started with our homeworks. the sosial study was crazy. it was alot alrites. well, if they don't mark it with their hearts and just giving a tick blindly, i'm gonna for sure kill that person. we do it seriously alrites. our hands i think is now in critical condition. errhhhh!! hahax!! cariina huihong and i was " tired, tired and tired " but well, i manage to do quite a few. hahax!!
after homeworks section, went to eat roti prata. i'm so bloated alrites. hahax!! we had a great time laughing our ass out. yahs, we ordered this white something. hahax!! it's ermm, nice and not nice. hahax!! well, taste kind off wierd. hahax!! took some photos and went home. gonna have another study section with them. i'm so hardworking! hahax!! chiiaos.

When I fail, I want to fail completely
And when I fall, I want to do it neatly

2007-06-11T07:41:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI!! wonderful day i had alrites. hahax!! i love celebrating my birthday. well, first of all because i'm finally one year older and yeah!! i'm grown up!! and secondly!! i'm able to make a wish and it's somehow has higher chances of getting it granted. hahax!! got to admit that i'm rather sad due to the fact that i'm unable to go back indonesia and!! i've got to stay here to tuition. like for godness sake. wasn't it suppose to be a holiday for me. haixz. life is life. alrites, back to today. i had a fantastic day today!! celebrating my birthday with my family and friends. hahax!! went to fetch huihong and cariina. yahs. sad things jereline samantha and momo are unable to come. hahax!! went to takashimaya for our dinner at seol garden. well, ryan and mushroom is forever always late urh. hahax!! went to the restaurant but yeahs. noone is there and the waiter is pissing me off. hahax!! went for a walk with girls. my cousin came over followed by my parents and friends and then lastly, the two guy came. hahax!! ate and was like sooo full!! i'm gonna need to diet. soo like bloated. hahax!! went home then after dinner. thanks for the birthday wishes everyone. :D and for the presents ariigato!! hahax!! small celebration but yeahs. i had great time. chiiaos.

What disappoints me the most is your true arrogance,
Instead you cast your mind with lies and ignorance.

2007-06-10T06:25:00.000-07:00

HOI !!HOI!! it's the 10th and yay!! i'm gonna be 15 in 3 hours time. hahax!! hoi hoi!! finally i'm grown up. yay!! hahax!! but sad things to say. i'm having a fever today in the afternnoon after i woke up from my nap. and tummy ache like nobody's business. haixz. it's repeating always!! always fall sick one day after or before my birthday!! ~~how great please.~~ gotta have party tomolow erhs? hahax!! okay enough of rubbish please. today. of coz, i stayed at home for the whole day sleeping. arhhhH!!! it's such troublesome. chatted at phone and i fell asleep in the middle of the conversation. hahax!! sorry devil!! argggg!! i really wanna go back to indonesia but for godness sake. my father just won't buy the ticket. and it's starting to get on my nerves. okay, i don't mind if i stayed here without tuition!! but unfortunately please, i have tuition during the holidays. arggggg!! i'm starting to hate tuition. it's holiday please. i'm not a robot or what. and i dont have doreamon!! who can just TADAS~ something will come out aand helped me. i'm complaining too much urh? hahax!! well, i'm sorry. hahax!! school's is like drewing nearer and nearer. frankly speaking, i totally forgot about what is school? i just wanna hurry finish up my studies and go back indonesia and worked. yesh!! worked. then i can say farewell tuitions and farewell homework and farewell teachers. i wish i'm a character in an anmine which is a happy ending!! haixz~ think too much. the three wishes tomorrow. can it be grant? or am i hoping too much? haixz. chiiaos.

I'd really love to be alone without all the
Ache and pain and the April showers

2007-06-08T07:22:00.000-07:00

hoi hoi!! sad thing to announce!! i'm back at singapore. ok!! seriously, i'm reluctant ok!! i mean , yahs!! i admit that at the first place i'm unwilling to back to indonesia!! but now, on the other hand, i'm seriously reluctant to come back here. it's not because of the tv show or what. but, i just need a new environment. i want to know what's the feeling of studying in there. yahs. more freedom i guess. hahax!! ok, i know i'm kind of stupid. well, now i'm here. but i'm planning to go back again on the 12th. hahax!! wish me luck please. hahax!! i missed devil like crazy please. hahax!! kind off regretting the 'thing'!! hahax!! i really wanted to watch the movie ok. hmmmm...just say you're scared please. hahahahax!! and!! i regretted not riding motorbike this holiday!! arggggg!! i'm already leaving many regrets behind!! ~~broken promise again!!~~ enough of craps. today woke up at 5.30 am. boohohos. there goes my sweet dreams. prepared myself and off to the airport. took a good nap at the car. hahax!! i remember i dreamt of something sweet. not that sweet ok. is taste sweet. hahax!! dreamt of lots of lolipop i guess. hahax!! say gdbye to indonesia and not long after. here i come singapore. hahax!! went home and blahs. blahs. as usual. hahax!! i'm turning 15 soon!! hahax!! gonna grow up. hip hip hurray!! hip hip hurray!! hip hip hurray!! hahax!! chiiaos.

&& Even tho we've moved on,
It get's so hard to walk away

2007-05-29T06:32:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI!! well, yeahs. i'm trying to be updating regularly please. hahax!! today congrats me please. i woke up at 7 am alrites. it's like SO early o. hahax!! i myself can't believed it too. had my breakfast with my dad mum and sis. whoahs. i mean it's like finally we ate together please.it's seldom ok. hahax!! ok, maybe it's due to the fact that i always woke up late or they went off to work. hahax!! slacked at my room. frankly, i've put my homework right beside me. yeahs.i've got that determination to finish up my work. but..ok. i'm melivia so the outcome is for sure predictable. hahax!! the homeworks were just there sleeping. hahax!! but i mean. hey, what's up with that pile of homework. the ~~teachers~~ is definitely trying to make us end up it woodbridge or what. i haven't even touch a single things ok. looking at the pile of homework just make me discourage. hahax!! but well, i'm just gonna have fun. hahax!! watched tv till lunch time and went out for lunch. ok, today didn't went out with devil. hahax!! tomorrow i guess. hahax!! the time i woke up will decide my day. hahax!! went to pizza hut for lunch. i'm bloated ok. my mum seems to order too much. hahax!! i'm gonna gain 100kg please. hahax!! went to her office and slacked there. hahax!! chatted with momo at MSN. ok. we are such a mean girl please. ok, ~~my bad my bad.~~ said so much things. hahax!! wo men shi tong mei tong ming o!! hahax!! played with my cousins. ok, mr jimbo and i were playing boxing urh. hahax!! went home ofter than and home sweet home. hahax!! chatted at phone with devil.i'm busy watching that movie. i'm mean dang it!! the man was a real hunk ok. hahax!! anyways. gonna visit the bookstore to buy some books. hahax!! i'm so sick of love songs please. what more about love movie. it just irritate me. well, will it be in reality. it's far too rediculous please.i would be the princess of the world if movies is reality. what the fcuk is happy ending, endless love, friendship forever, destinied together, fated!! it's rubbish ok. well, i'm sorry if offending. but it does make sense please. hahs, i'm just writting craps please. hahax!! kind off a long posting urh. well done! watching movies again. i'm missed so much television show mans. only some looks familiar. hahax!! yahs. i've changed my phone too. ok. even though this isn't the phone i wanted. actually, never wanted. hahax!! but it's way better than nothing. my mum bought it out of a sudden ok. hahax!! well, it's just the N73. hahax!! sadly but happily. hahax!! i'm talking rubbish. chiiaos.

Crying from all the pain I feel so deep
Images on my mind, until I sleep,
Waking to a day brand-new
Another day without you.

2007-05-27T07:19:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI!! halloes indonesia! hahax!! finally i'm back yeahs.hahax!! Dang it. No then i finally realised that i've got much to catch up with the movies. oh my god!! mada mada dane melivia. hahax!! congrats melivia ok. what a wonderful day is today. yesh!! WONDERFUL!! how lucky can i be when i reached in indonesia. my dad was late as there was traffic jam. and, yeahs. well done, i've got to wait. ~~wondeful mans.~~ and yeahs.not including that i sat with two korean man. Old mans. and imagine please. how boring could t be. well, i don't mind if it was rain who sat beside me. hahax!! enough lame joke please. hahax!! alrites. i'll continue with my complains. then. i reached home. and my room's floor at the corner was EEEWWWW~ what thr fcuk happenned to it mans. my hair just stand when looking at it ok. seems like it's ~~rotten~~ or what. i shouted like hell ok. burning with anger please. ok. my dad say the people will change it next week. god bless them please. i'm gonna shout at them like hell please. ~~fcuk lahx.~~ such an idiot. now like i've got to cover it with carpet or else. i'm gonna vomit soon please. errggggg!! hahax!! then my luggage can't be open. and i have to wait till tomorrow please. what the hell. what's happenning to today? godness of luck is not on my side? thanks god i've got clothes in here. erggggg!! what a bad day!!ok!! BAD BAD BAD DAY!!! calm myself down and home sweet home. took my supper with my mom. and it was yummy please. hahax!! how i miss home-cook. hahax!! tomolow. i'll be enjoying myself yehs. hahax!! gotta enjoy the feeling of home hahax!! meeting devil soon i guess. yay!! much of misses please. hahax!! gonna be in my lullaby. dreaming of my rainbow in my dreams. hahax!! chiiaos!!

eventually everything becomes your past
But your memories will always last
And with that i hope you see
Not all love is meant to be

2007-05-26T10:00:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI i'll be going back tomorrow o. hahax!! yay!! finally mans. goodbye singapore. Halloes indonesia hahax!! okay. stopping my nonsense now. woke up at 12.30 and well done melivia. you woke up so early please. hahax!! my theme park is cancelled. hahax!! guess everyone overslept urh. hahax!! well, slacked at home then. i spent the whole day with my husband(bed) and my laptop. well done. well done. let's congrats melivia please. it's now already 604 unread emails. WOW!! ok. WOW!! hahax!! ~~i'm being childish o.~~ well, i'm sorry. hahax!! slacked until 6.30 and went to meet stacy. we planned to have our dinner outside. took our heels to compass point and yesh. here's our treasure hunt started. first point. went to look for her nail polish. and Dang IT!! soo choosy please. hahax!! then went to look for her earings. it's beautiful ok. hahax!! 100% elegant. yesh. thanks to melivia please. i chose it ok. hahax!! ok. so everything is bought and mine begin. looked for my vcd and it's so hard ok. went round and round the basement and our stomach is grumbling like nobody's business mans. hahax!! finally found and went to eat. booohs. didn't manage to eat pizza as the queue was WOW!!! soo long please. then we are being a fool ok. we looked like 2 stupid children going up the escalator and going down again. ~~laugh out loud ok.~~ ate delifrance then. And believe me. the food is two thumbs down please. both the spagetti and soup tasted like water please. ok. enough of complaining. must be grateful melivia. you know how many people in Africa is starving hahax!! seems so holy mans. hahax!! well, i'm sorry. hahax!! chatted alot and we had so much fun please. took our ride back to kovan. and stacy never stop practicing for tomorrow's interviem or what. hahax!! goodluck my girl. hahax!! ok!! stacy met this t** and she started to lose control please. hahax!! went home then. hahax!! Goodluck for tomorrow. yeahs!! we're both going to fight our way tomorrow. ~~you'll be fighting for your interview. and i'll me fighting my way at the airport.~~ hahax!! MAMAMIA!! goodluck to myself please. hahax!! packed my luggage and it's a very small one please. hahax!! hope tomorrow i don't end up in New York or where please. hahax!! ~~it's not true right. seriously is not. the picture of you in my mind never changed this fast. it's just a normal saying. yesh. it just.~~ chiiaos everybody. will be back real soon urh. on the 8th i'll be back. hahax!! devil. yay!! i'm coming. hahax!! chiiaos.

Right Now Your {HeLlO's} Feel A [MILLION] Miles Away..
&
My {GoOdByE} Looks Like It Could Be Here [TOMORROW]

2007-05-25T07:55:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI alrites. it'll be my complaining section i guess. hahax!! school's is so pathetic today please. i mean..hey, what's wrong. having a menopause or something. geography was seriously boring please. my mind is in coma i guess. none of things being taught came to my brain. then was english. DANG IT helloes. what's happening please. look like japanese soldiers during the world war had arrived to 3N2 and BOOM!!! volcano errupted. that's just the beginning please. secondly, the homework was WOW~ well done. so long my holiday, welcome homework well done, well done. i've got to complete the whole workbook and there many more ok. ~~countless i guess.~~ and we had to do reflection and i can't think of words to say. as it's also scolding section. well, seems like 3N2 is already in the red book. the worst class i guess. erggg. ~~well, i'm sorry.~~ OK!! enough of craps. mr Lee came to give our report and yeahs. i swear that the whole class is not in a good mood. well done. thanks you much. And again. sadly but predictable. we had another scolding. hummm!! shan't go any further. went to get our exams paper. and we waited for years. let melivia be an angel for a few second. i pity the late comer please. hahax!! went home and home sweet home. i've been looking for one particular movie but it's nowhere to be found. hahax!! today was totally a bad day. emmmmm~ but i've got to admit. i've recieve a present before i say farewell to bartley secondary. hahax!! and say halloe on term three. NO!! don't even wanna think that far mans. hahax!! ~~a glimpse is so enough. more that enough. a sigh of relieve i've let out. and yeahs. everything is done. no regrets left behind.~~ sayonara beta. hahax!! we'll meet up and indonesia urh.hoi hoi!! will be missing you much mans. hahax!! june holiday here i come. will be a perfect holiday without homework. and make matter even worst. ~~unreasonable homework~~ hahax!! sad to say. i haven touch the theatre yet. dang it. again. it's another regret. boohohos. hahax!! okay. ennough of rubbish melivia. chiiaos.

Slowly with each and every passing day
stealing pieces of the person I use to be
mixing me up into a jig saw puzzle
scattered pieces of the real me.

2007-05-24T08:38:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI!! is my eyes playing a trick on me or it's suppose to be this way? the words seem smaller. hahax!! lols. forgive me about my madness. hahax!! i slacked at home for the whole day. wahahax!! how great mans. i really woke up at 2.07. hahax!! my head was damb heavy right now. went to eat my breakfast or i should say mixture of breakfast and lunch hahax!! continued with my movies. dang it. i can't stop myself from watching movies please. guess i'm fated to be a director or what. hahax!! but considering now. since i'm not smart nor am i talented. hahax!! maybe i should be one. emmm!! i hope i can be like steven spielberg[my bad spelling fail]!! and i'll be able to meet tom cruise. YAY!! okay. cross my fingers, i'm praying hard now. amen! hahax!! tomorrow's school again. no!!! my mind is already holiday-ing please. wish i've got my own doraemon, hmmmm...then i can ask him to fast-forward time or turn back time. ~~turn back time yesh!!~~ hahax!! okay. i'm talking craps please. actually wanted to meet ian somewhere in the evening. but, okay. due to that i'm destinied with my bed. NO! like what mr chin says. i'm married to my bed. hahax!! i cancelled. booohs. hahax!! well, i'm sorry. hahax!! ~~I don't wanna live my life, too many sleepless nights Not mentioning the fights, I'm sorry to say~~ having my sleep soon. yeahs. saturday will be my big day!! i'm gonna have to choose of which pig i'm gonna bring home. hahax!! As sunday will be my reunion with small bimbo. my huge enormous fat pig!! hahax!! i know i'm lame. well, i'm sorry. hahax!! chiiaos.

don't care what the future holds
And don't care about what you've been told
Don't want to hear what the weatherman has to say
'Cause I'm standing knee deep in yesterday's rain

2007-05-22T21:18:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI!! okay!! forget about that previous post. deleted it duhs. hahax!! it's just a practical joke. something to relieve myself from boredness. hahax!! met up with cariina and yesh!! i and huihong had a huge pizza treat. it's " two thumbs up " ok!! hahax!! i'm famished that very moment. hahax!! huihong came over my house for a few minutes i guess. and took our heels to compass then. whoahs. that '' old man " was freaking irritating please. what kind of driver is that. 100% annoying and he wanted his face so much. grow up please! erggggh!! hahax!! went compass and played at timezone. well, yeahs. that was hell small. it's the smallest timezone i've seen so far. hahax!! "played table ping pong" well, the only difference is that the ball is flat o. hahax!! why in the hell huihong beat me for two straight rows. hmmmmm!! hahax!! beta and cariina soon join both of us and we made our way to the library!! dang it!! what's happening today please. it seems godness of luck is not on my side or what. another complaint soon came. this time was from another '' old man" ergggg!! seems i've got no fate with old man please. hahax!! went to sakae sushi then. whoahs. we are bloated please. the plates were scary o. we are like hungry ghost mans. hahax!! and!! it cost us a bomb!! hahax!! made our way to kovan. we had great time at the bus. it's as if it's ours took lots of photos and how great. the sunlight love me. hahax!! slacked at mcdonald and we are all tired please. stomach pain we suffered. hahax!! guess my blog is finally alive o. hahax!! okay!! even though i seemed to be the last one to update about today's outing. hahax!! my bad my bad!! hahax!! and i'm not uploading photos please hahax!! i'm so damb lazy alrites. hahax!! but no choice!! who ask me to have pig as my idol!! hip hip hurray!! hahax!! get well soon huihong and cariina please. pray hard for our stomach pain to shooos away!! hahax!! great days with all my gf(s)!! thousand of love from melivia okay!! proud you must!! hahax!! ~~i now i can no longer deny. it's just the way it is now. no longer i can continue my play. and no longer i can hide. it just pass. yeahs. just pass.~~ melivia have finally blogged. oh~~ i'm so touched. hahax!! few days left and i'm gonna be back at indonesia. kangen banget!! devil finally we're gonna meet again yohs. hahax!! okay. we are both crazy. been shouting at each other at the phone. hahax!! tomorrow's is holiday. and i finally can no longer need to deprive myself from sleeping. i'll be up at 2 or 3 please. hahhax!! chiiaos.

And I may be a drama queen,

With an over active heart

But you know its been on over drive,Right from the very start.

2007-05-21T07:45:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI!! my blog is rusting for godness sake!! hahax!! monday blues seriously!! i've got to wake up early after my four straight days of holidays!! jjeeeeez!! 100% pissed me off mans. hahax!! assembly never fails to irritates my eyes!! and i've got my result!! english was seriously not up to my standard please. ain't gonna describe further down. bygone let it be bygone. today's school was overall slacking please. and just for information!! i love mr NG hahax!! after school went home with jereline and jeeeez!! i'm sweating profusely please. the sun was unbearable. ~~am i in africa or what.~~ hahax!! continued my movie. dang it. that movie is sooo dramatic please. is it meant for people to cry or what. and it's boring too!! i've wasted my 3 days which is my 48 hours and dunnoe how many minutes and seconds on this useless movie. holidays is few days to go. and i'm gonna be back soon!! myself alrites. hahax!!hopefully i don't go to new york or what! hahax!! i know inside me there is a better weather! ain't wanna leave any regrets behind.

It doesn't really matter 'bout the rain
'cause we'll get through it anyway
We'll get up and start again

2007-05-15T04:23:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI exams is finally gonna be over soon. i'm so looking forward to all the activities i've planned for quite sometimes. i mean finally i'm able to have a mind on my own and decide. in addition to it, i'm going back to indonesia soon. hip hip hurray! ! viva indonesia! i love jakarta! let's go! okay mind my madness please. hahax!! that's sentence somehow never fails to pop up into my brain. jeez- i look like a retard somehow. hahax!! i've got really needed some time to clear all the rubbish up.

578 unread email

got to clear that soon! but it would be great if it reached to 1000 unread email!

school was never better! and today is really pathetic. even early in the morning, it's already raining cats and dog. and to the fact that i walked to school, i recieved the greatest impact of cause. chemistry exams was alright. seems easier that physic. ~~100% easier~~ went home and believe it or not! i had a full of 3 hours of math tuition. it's way too long please. kills my brain cells. maybe i've got to eat more vitamins to protect my brain cells from the confusing mathematic formulae. hahax!! after tuition! took a bath. and i've reached the limits. i fall asleep for a full 3 hours. however, i don't remember i made a dream or what. hahax!!

came online and chatted at phone. and now i'm blogging. a stept closer. i'm fine with all the obstacle i've met and it takes a while for me to find, that i can't have things my own way all the time. the world outside really doesn't matter. if it's for happiness than why not. it's motivational time i guess. hahax!! movies is never reality. cause happy endind is once in a blue moon. hahax!!

i'm so looking forward to fantastic four

so far movies i've watched regarding superheroes.

superman

Xmen

spiderman

hulk

fantastic four

batman return

catwomen

blade

elektra

MELIVIA SHOULD CREATE A MOVIE TOO

then i'll be able to go tour the whole world in 80 days. hahax!! long post of rubbish for today. tomolow's last paper. mug hard everyone. hahax!! chiiaos.

i guess it’s gonna have to hurt

I guess i’m gonna have to cry

And let go of some things i’ve loved

To get on to the other side

I guess it’s gonna break me down

Like falling when you’re trying to flyIt’s sad,

but moving on with the rest of your life

Starts with goodbye

2007-05-14T02:41:00.000-07:00

HOI HOI! ! hahax!! melivia's updating once and for all. hahax!! had a great time with huihong and carina at carina's house. hahax!! alrites. we shared deep thoughts ok. hahax!! it's definitely serious want. hahax!! today's paper was for sure a mind boggling to me. it's soo hard lahx. never mind. two more days to the end of examination. got to jiia yous melivia. hahax!! stidy hard mans. cariina and huihong!! hahax!! after exam went to grab some bite at mcdonald and we had a laughing section there. hahax!! then went to cariina's house and slack. hoi hoi!! got to dedicate this to cariina. thank you for the themes o. hahax!! let's jiia yous together and look forward for days to get better. never leave any regrets behind. hahax!! hoi hoi hahax!! went home then with huihong. hahax!! okiies. i'm dedicating this to huihong. hahax!! she's for sure gonna be seething with anger please. hahax!! '' viva America! i love New York. Let's Go. '' hahax!! okiies. seems to be that i'm finally having my mood in blogging. hahax!!

plans after exam:

shopping

zoo outing

theme park and wild wild wet

AND

not to forget about movies.

hoihoi

movies to watched.

- 200 pounds.

fantastic four

pirate of the carribian

shrek 3

ocean thirteen

don't look back

not to forget about food alrites

steamboat

pizza pizza and pizza

banana split

chom chom

i'm looking forward. hahax!! my planning is done. just left to be done. hahax!! i don't wanna leave any regrets behind. so what i've done let it be done. it's just a matter of wanting to not be used to it. it's a matter of used to it if it was all for happiness then why not try it. not matter if there's a need in sacrifising. happiness all matters. so just do it.

To not care at all about her falling tears

To truthfully say I have no fears

To hold the world in the palm of my hand

To actually not care that you are her man

2007-05-13T06:02:00.000-07:00

i'm studying for my physics please. it's seriously bitting more and more of my brain cells. frankly speaking, nothing went into my mind. for the past few hours i've been staring at my textbook but none of the words seems to be liking me. hahs. today i remain on my bed for almost the whole day. woke up at 12 something and went online but as per usual i'm appearing offline. hahax!! watched some movies which made my tears rolled down continuesly. the movie was simply touching. arhh~ it ain't a dramatic movie. it's a cartoon please. the friendship bonding made me cry. hahax!! okiies. i'm dedicating this to my mum[s]. hahax!! happy mother's day to mummy and huihong. should be touched for godness sake please. hahax!! after my movie went to grab some bites and chatted at phone for almost an hour or more with devil.

devil: selamat hari ibu deehs.
me: emang gue nyokap lhoe?
devil: bukan.
me:trus?
devil: lhoe gak kompak banget sih. gak fun banget.
me:...........

jeez- always makes me mad urh. hahax!! went out for dinner and jeez- the place was freaking hot. i kept sweating profusely o. hahax!! ~~tomorrow is exams again.~~ slapped me awake please. what's with all the memorising and all the defination. it's even a strain for me to open my textbook alrites. went home and took my bath and so now i'm here studying while blogging. hahax!! guess i can't helped but to admit. i don't wanna leave any regrets behind. mada mada dane melivia. got much more to learngi guess. it's just a matter of wanting to get used and accept. world won't end for me. time won't stop for me. that's a fact i've got to accept. short post for today. chiiaos.

Breathing lyrics

As blue notes to your heart

Silent agony centers

Now together, now apart

2007-05-12T09:23:00.000-07:00

halloes!! finally back after missing in action for quite some times. didn't really have my mood to study or even came online please. for the past few days what i've been doing was only lying on my bed or just stare blankly at the ceiling. didn't manage to meet ian yesterday due to the fact that i overslept. dreams are always beautiful these days. hahax!! i've got to buck up in my study i guess. have not been touching my textbook for the past few days. even though exams were just around the corner please. hahax!! blahs.happy birthday melvin. 110507. yesterday was sleeping the whole day. woke up at 12.30. came online but i'm appearing offline as per usual. then back sleeping again till don't know what time and slacked on my bed till time i fell asleep. how great please. really took alot of rest. today woke up at 2 and went to prepare to meet ian. went to grab some bites and blahs. chatted alot. never stops to brighten up my days urh. hahax!! went home and now i am blogging. real short post for today. i'm looking forward till the day comes. simply denying didn't stand a chance now. if only words could describe how. then i wont be in such dilemma. it's just a matter of time. chiiaos.

Cause why fight the struggle

Why battle the pain

Just give up and admit defeat

So for once, just once, you were sane...

2007-05-07T01:46:00.000-07:00

i'm not in denial i know i'm not. school was totally pathetic and life's doesn't get any better. where's all my wishes went to. maybe i should really let my guards down. and i know i should. today as usual took my heels to the place so called my doom. i really hated school. seriously, it's where problems started. had a seriously boring assembly and the weather was seriously unbearable. imagine early in the morning. which at first should be chilling turned out on the other way into a place like africa or what. maybe singapore is getting nearer and nearer to equator or what huiying says it's global warming. enough please melivia. then had no PE and it turned out to be motivational and nagging section. i was caught for my name tag and my hair. totally pissed off. okay. gotta changed melivia. let's be a nerdy. hahax!! =/ then was math. as boring as ever. hot weather in addition with mathematics formulae all over the air. imagine please. then was reccess. i and beta didn't do much. just patrolling looking like a retard. looking forward for the clock to strikes 20. was real hungry and decided to eat. yahs. new stall had opened and seriously it looked real healthy. urh~ then was english. for godness sake. how wonderful is my class. had a nagging section and maybe and indirect words of encouragement. time flew. and it was finally chemistry. the class is totally in chaos. mr lee came and really drag the time. was a rush hour for me. ran home home and rush for my tuition. teach me how to hide the fault i see. it's getting much complicating i guess. who's in the black and who is in the white. i just don't wanna bother much and let nature takes its course. following what i wanter is the best way i guess. i can't ask much. being up to standard is enough. enough of it. just ain't any better. it's forever the same melivia. huahs. there;s no full stop just a coma. well, i guess it's true. hahax!! being edited somehow. hide the fault i see enough of rubbish and complaint or what so ever. exams is just so near and yeahs. i'm gonna burn midnight oil i guess. chiiaos.

Visions, voices, flashing back

Screams of stories yet untold

2007-05-06T07:16:00.000-07:00

after years and years from missing in action from blogging finally i'm back yesh. hahax!! i love weekend to the core. firstly, i finally get to excused myself from waking up early. hahax!! yesterday and today was fantastic. i had a great time o. hahax!! yesterday went out with beta to watch spiderman 3. okay the queue was seriously long and sad thing is, we've only left with the first row. after buying our tickets. we took our heels to take a walked around orchard. ate a japanese food and it taste good urh. hahax!! then went to cine and seriously. ~~there's this guy with a sweet smile.~~ went back to slack at PS. was finding for a seat to sit but sadly there's none. so we just standing around. saw many faces but i didn't bother to take much notice. went for our show and the show nice. hahax!! my hero spiderman. huahahax!! i dreamt of spider man okay. he save me from forth floor storey. my hero. hahax!! today met huihong beta and kevin at KFC. i was forever late. hahax!! had our lunch and made our way to buy jereline's present. was wrapping it on the spot. i seriously love the card. of couse. melivia chose it. hahax!! okay enough of nonsense. then went to compass to study. finally. we made it. we studied real hard there. hahax!! then ate pizza my favourite. and beta was unhappy there. cheer up honey. there's some prank called somehow. send her home and i and huihong went home. great day today with my girlfriends. they are my crayons to my life. hahax!!at home yeash. my cousin came and blahs. blahs. hahax!! slacked at my bed and now i'm blogging. i don't know if i ever get the chance. how am i able to believe we'll go far. however. the bridge were hard to climb. and i don't even think i had enough strength to even hold on. as days past by. i'm out of ways. you are far too challenging. i'm not yet up to standard. maybe never be. chatted at phone and yesh. it decided that i'll be going back to indonesia. maybe for only 15 days. hahax!! chiiaos.

&& Even though we've moved on,

It get's so hard to walk away

2007-05-04T04:38:00.000-07:00

back again && always again. hahax!! lame me urhs. hahax!! today had my chinese test. gosh. i'm sure going to flunk this exam. i mean why the paper be set this hard. arrgggG!! i've chosen the wrong composition, and my close passage is really a nightmare. make matter even worst. my letter is as though i'm smsing with my brother or something. so not going to ok!! hmmmm!! never mind. woked up at 6 and was having a hard time in opening my eyes. how i wish time would just freezed in that moment and let me sleep a little longer. forced myself up and went to school as usual. it's something serious. i'm so lucky lucky in the morning i guess. but it's still saddenning of the outcome. it's not even what i would have been expecting please. ~~as though there's a huge wall preventing me to cross over.~~ had my exam which what i've said just now. i'll flunk for godness sake. then was break. took a grabs with beta and continued my paper two. again!! i'll do very badly this time round. pathetic waited for hwee ling and then we went home. waited for the bus for like century o. had my tuition and slacked at home. i slept for like 3 hours today!! hahax!! been a long time since i really had my good afternoon sleep. hahax!! woke up at around 7 and positioned myself in front of the computer. chatted at the phone with devil. then went to pass some things to ian and bought lolipops again. lolipops relieve stress agree? hahax!! ~~i'm not that lucky i'm not that good. even with just a feww cm(s) away. i still look as though i'm km(s) away. not up to standard yet. again. once and for all i accept my defeat.~~ i've been thinking a millions time. but the answer is still one. maybe i shouldn't be this gu zhi" ( what so ever ) and maybe everything will be alright. the now is undescribeable. i'm losing and i'm winning and i'm wanting and i'm hating. which is which and who is who. gonna burn midnight oil again today. preparing for physics and geog urh. hahax!! add oil melivia. kampatte. hahax!! suddenly had to urge to say ~~i'm missing you.~~ hahax!! retarded me urh. hahax!! chiiaos.

I've Tried So hard To Block It Out

But It Don't Help I Need To Shout

2007-05-01T07:25:00.000-07:00

had a fantastic day with the girls. hahax!! woke up at 9.30 and slacked all the way. hahax!! had my tuition adn prepared off to meet the gurls. met them at me bus stop there and went to parkway parade. whoahs. memories i seek there. again. how fantastic were those memories back then. if i could..i would...i would..turn back time. again. my childish thinking. hahax!! pardon me please. at first decided to study at library but change of mind. went to KFC instead. okay. we were more chit chatting.alrites. was laughing all the way. and way and way. hahax!! how marvelous. pain just vanished when i'm with them. they really made my days with crayon andd coulour pencils. hahax!! was doing our geography homework and our hands almost went crippled okay. hahax!! had our serious thought to thought sections. and yeahs. we hundreds percent lost our studying mood. hahax!!finished our homework and slacked at the waterfall or whatsoever. had our photo section and went for a walked.decided to eat steamboat then. whoahs. finally. we did. we ate steamboat. hahax!! it cost us a bomb. ate like hungry ghost and decided to slacked at starbuck. ordered my coffee and we chit chatted. beta really me laugh out loud. hahax!! she always brighten up my days. hahax!! was emo-ing too. ~~flashed back and future imagination. i'm not up to your standard and i can't compete with that inocent. i'm far too behind. and maybe there's much i have to learn.~~ hahax!! beta bought her vanilla something. hahax!! really made me laugh like ass. hahax!! decided to went home then. fallen asleep on the bus. i've wish i could change something back then. they went to my house. we slacked all the way. hahax!! chit chat play and making nonsense joke. hahax!! they went home then. hahax!! tomolow's school again. what the fcuk. school's really a boredom. exam's coming and like i've not prepared enough. make me concentrate please. chatted at phone with devil for a while. and now i am blogging. <s>just tell me which is which. and why am i still responding strangely to that particular words. which is which. and who is who. i just want to find my way back into love. i'm not caring about anymore. any nonsense. ain't no more. in fact my world consist of many people. that's my world. and in fact. that's everyone's world should be. not up to standard yet. enough craps for today. chiiaos.

I Want To Hold You And Never Let You Go

I Wonder If All This - You Already Know

2007-04-29T08:04:00.000-07:00

can i express my feeling? blahs. back to blogging. woke up at 1.30 today. a great sleep i had. before tomolow monday ~~blues~~. haixz. forget it. slacked in front of my computer. actually wanted to go out with ian to shop for things but cancelled. decided to go off study with stacy and ryan!! waited for her to reached home from bugis and off we started our journey. had a serious chat with her. hahax!! always had urhs. hahax!! saw momo carina huihong they all. whoahs. was rather suprised. been like so long not meeting them. took some photos and off we bid farewell. hahax!! slacked at mcdonald for the first 1 hour maybe. was chit chatting while waiting for ryan to arrive. yesh. we are planning for our dreams. became rather emotion. with the mixture of anger sad and happy. hahax!! ~~what about you? who take for granted?~~ ryan came and he did not study at all. hahax!! he went to bbal court and so i and stacy was mugging hard. how great mans. hahax!! ryaN && mogu came. chit chatted for quite some times and we bid farewell. i and went off to popular. hahax!! please can. we are like aunty grabbing pens lahs. hahax!! went to buy some chocolates and off we went home. ~~i just can't get my eyes off you. everything is just too good to be true. and i know not such privellages[ blahs. my own spelling] i can get. it never supposed to be mine.~~ it's just too good to be true. reached home and slacked again. it's another sleepless night for me. tomolow's school. pathetic school. wonder what would it be if i'm in england or back to stept one schooling? hahax!! guess it's a fairytale come true. mug hard melivia. jiia yous please. hahax!! chiiaos.

Months with memories

Soon to be forgotten

2007-04-28T07:13:00.000-07:00

congratulation melivia!! huahahax!! back into blogging again!! yay!! hahax!! today is saturday yahs yahs!! hahax!! woke up and had my tuition and off out with ms evelyn!! hahax!! went to cathay and met her friends and friends. hahax!! went to KBOX!! had fun o. hahax!! but too bad too sad to that particular song. really gave me an eerie feelings. flashback and flashback!! tsunami happen on my brain!! hahax!! blahs. bad theory of mine. then went off to meet stacy!! she's with her friends. please. ain't good at any part from i see. no matter if it's up down left right. AINT GOOD!! never mind. then off for shopping with stacy. she's really my shopping partner mans. hahax!! bought a necklace and a shirt. huahahax!! how happy. finally my mood is back!! yeosh!! hahax!! then went for our dinner. again!! steamboat is cancelled!! hahax!! but ate somewhat somehow like ' chom chom ' ate like hungry ghost please. we chatted like super long please. hell yesh!! i love chatting with my mean girl partner. hahax!! she always has her nonsensical logic. hahax!! i love you darlinks. hahax!! chatted like almost for 3 hour there lahx. we're somehow the longest there. hahax!! then off home. chit chatted photos and rubbish logic all the way. hahax!! reached home at 10 and now i am blogging. hahax!! great day today!! ~~i admit finnally. yesh i do. and so i'm not over you. i cant but i hope i could.~~ all i want to do is to find my way back in to love and get through tonight. i hope you show me what to do. hahax!! chatted with devil at phone. and yesh. yesh. i maybe will be back alrites. hahax!! missing you hell many please. hahax!! share our thoughs as usual. hahax!! tomolow is sunday and monday. argggg!! monday blues please. hahax!! MAN UTD won again for godness sake. they rocks alrites. really getting on fire please. a 3 to 2 over AC MILAN. and today they won again!! whoahs. hail to them mans. i thought they are gonna lose lahx. kaka VS ronaldo? i'm so 100% on ronaldo please. he's got everything!! hahax!! sir alex way to go my man. hahax!! watched BULLS vs HEATS today. blahs. i hate both team please. especially wade lahs. haiyooos. of coz i admit he may be the 2nd michael jordan. boohs. hahax!! iverson and nowitzki still my idol mans. hahax!! writting craps please. hahax!! i know there's no way. but what's about imagine. that's abit better please. i cant get over until i'm really ready i hope. huryy make this feelings go away please. i'm hoping for a change in environment. maybe back to my stept one is better. maybe...haiyooos. wake me up when all is over please. enough rubbish. chiiaos.

&& I Want This To Be Over, I So Want This To Be Through.

2007-04-26T04:34:00.000-07:00

i'm back posting!! arlooohars~ hahax!! okay enough craps please. hahax!! today okay!! no bad hair day for me. i mean like finally hahax!! woke up off to school. idiot. what's happening to singapore please. raining everyday? okay..i can tolerate the rain. but what's with the thunder? yeahs. everything is against me. even the sky do. OMG* was fighting with the rain all the way till the school. bad aura again. and indeed. my six sense really prove me right. ~~i realise the no existeence.~~ saw azman on my way to school. and he was halfed drenched. hahax!! again we fight with the rain!! blahs. was mother tounge o. doing the correction. i'm concentrating all the way alright. congrats me please. then was english!! melivia you gotta buck with english o. been deproving all the way!! lesson about composition. then was D&T. freaking boring o. i hate thursday d&T lesson please. but i love mr zaini's class!! hahax!! reccess. and the was 4 PERIOD of mr lee's lesson!! forever scolding lesson o. 3N2 is really giving a hard time to him mans. hahax!! then had our photo taking!! i seriously looked like an idiot. what's with my smile mans. ~~fake or something~~ ACT on chem. i love mr NG please. wo de ou xiang** he's super man ok. hahax!! went home with the girls and went for my tuition. concentrated- hahax!! slacked at my bed for usual. chatted at phone. kampatte melivia!! i'm burning midnight oil today!! 100% must study hard for english and SS!! hahax!! i realise your not existence. i can lie to the outside but i cant inside. both so perfect and i'm sure not the kind who'll be the devil. i'm sick and tired of always being the devil!! many time i've been. and i'm sure now too i'm still a devil. coz some what or other. the matter still dont end. fcuked mans. if i starts to matter please let me know.. ending all my rubbish. mug hard on mid year everyone. including melivia please. hahax!! chiiaos.

What happens when smiles go away and everything changes in just one day?

2007-04-24T01:15:00.002-07:00

halloes!! back blogging. seriously nothing special happened. duhs. what a boring day[s]. schooling schooling and schooling. stressed up mid year exam which was around the corner. studying? i'm not at all!! just having tuition and tuition. never mind. enough of complaining o. hahax!! today woke up at 6 and prepare. hahax!! i was early today!! =) usually woke up at 6.10. lols. hahax!! slacked at the living room and off to school. okay. before stepping to the school gate really had a bad atmosphere. seems like giving sign of unluckyness!! and yeahs. it's totally true!!! i hate my bad hair day hmmmm!! idiot o. hahax!! was D&T. we are doing our work okay. hahax!! seriously i'm so not okay today!! hahax!! keep singing christmass song and laughing out loud with momo samantha and weifang!! hahax!! crazy melivia today!! hahax!! then was social study!! forever boring okay. i've been seriously losing my interest towards social study. in fact i'm now admiting something i would not like to. geography these days is even more intresting. due to the teachers of coz. haixz. the reccess. completing my geog homework. hahax!! geog lesson. fine nothing wrong. i'm completely out of idea about map reading. hahax!! then was math. blahs. doing test and test again. booohs. then chem!! doing work at the study place again!! chit chatted with merina. break. arrggg!! my hair was totally indescriable. totally bad bad bad!! had social study. oh my god!! justin. dont be such a loser please. do you take your medicine today? dancing outside the classroom? please. even i who looked also feel embarassed ok. insane guy!! never mind. completely spoil my mood. off home with the girls. meet stacy and her friends. ~~aggggg!! it's like such a coincidencial please. fcuk mans. out of words again. thank god that it's not out yet!!~~ consoling myself please. not thinking the negative ways. just say i'm thinking too much. but it's really true? i mean such a coincidence? is it so called fate? to say i like just say i bluffed. to say i don't. say I LIE!! fcuking life. totally being a loser urh? melivia is out of ways. or please she dont even know the real deal is. pathetic life i've got
slacking at home. and blahs. blahs. home sweet home for me. thunder it appears again. and for godness sake. memories flows. hahax!! chatted at phone while bucking up with my exam!! kampatte melivia. chiiaos.

For as long as you're happy

I'll make it through.

2007-04-24T01:15:00.001-07:00

For as long as you're happy

I'll make it through.

2007-04-22T06:02:00.000-07:00

if only i could..i would. :) today was great. finally we had our runion. missed bella so much. hahaX!! really been a long time ever since we met okay. hahax!! woke up at 11.30 then slacked at my bed. hahax!! i'm enjoying every minutes and seconds in my bed coz'' i know monday is just freaking tomorrow. booohs. hahax!! met beta and bella at 2.30+ sorry i'm late` hahax!! went to jurong then chua chu kang then dont know what plaza to see stacy's preview or something. okay. stacy!! you are so freaking tall with that heels okay. hahax!! and please. what the hell are they thinking in chosing such a far away place urh? it took like 1 hour plus to go there okay. almost fell asleep mans. hahax!! anyways. chatted with beta and bella at the train. hahax!! missed our primary school moment o. saw stacy for a while then off we three went to eat at swensen. then meet stacy at the arcade. whoahs. hahax!! long time never go arcade liaos o. hahax!! we placed the photo thing. okay we ended at level 10. hahax!! then off we went home. missed our moments of us!! four of us!! hahax!! like decades had passed okay. hahax!! off home with stacy. we had great times looking at the stars. off i went home. took a bath and now i am blogging. i've read my horoscope and hell yea. maybe it's right. i should get to know the person. and so i'll know that it's not like what i think. should not put too much hope. maybe it's so real. i should not. but if i could i would..... hope times just stop. nomore fcuking problems please. make this be the last. i've had enough. how good if i can just wake up everyday. with a smile on my face . carry on my day. with new experienced and fairytale && movie life. and i end my day. looking upon the star and smiled goodnite. i would be the happiest person on earth urh. hahahax!! stop dreaming melivia!! mid year is around the corner. gotta put off everything and plunged myself to the books. kampatte! ! ! not for the sake of studying. got to fulfil my dreams. keep promises. england i'll be there for sure. hahax!! i want my university life as soon as possible. hahax!! monday blue. haixz. i hate going school please. got to wake up in the morning. and carry myself to school. haiyooos. why cant everyday be saturday and sunday!! hahax!! i've been wishing for the same old wishes please. but still none came true. is it too much? or is it an imposibble wish? haiyooos. looking forward for june holiday. maybe going back indo!! wanting and not wanting. hahax!! but seriously i missed devil wina all~ hahax!! those moments were great!! :D and i f i could. i wanna go taiwan for holiday!! hahax!! okay!! enough of craps!! i'm like talking to myself o. hahax!! ~~wish something true would come. the day when i starts to matter. please let me know...~~ ending here. chiiaos.

&& its strange how you can make my day;and ruin it at the same time.